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Haven't talk to him in a couple of days now. Wish I could stop counting how long it's been. I guage how often to call, and conjecture on when I should. 'Timing' contact so that I don't look like I want him to come back, or that I miss him too much, yet not wanting to let him go. I can't stop asking him if he has drank, and then not believing the answer when I get it.
It's distraction. He has always been the reason I am unhappy, I know in my head that I am the reason I am unhappy, but it doesn't wash in this semi-obsessive state. It is difficult to really hammer it home. at least I am ok generally for a day or two at a time now. I was only managing to be ok for an hour or two at first. So I guess this is some progress, but today, this morning, maybe is just a little hard.
I will try to focus on what I need to do today. I will act 'as if' and wait for some time to pass.
I haven't been to the board recently and came to see the responses to my post. I am not sure what your situation is. My A has left. Even though he doesn't drink he has alcoholic behavior. I miss him. I want to call but I try to resist. He just can't be in this relationship. I cry when I come home to an empty house. But I am learning to let go and let god.
