The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I had that exact fear for a long time ladybugnessa. What would I do if he called my bluff?! I extended that bluff a few times until last Sunday when something in me snapped.
Know what...it's not the end of me, just the end of the marriage. I have 2 boys, a house and a car as well as animals, but no job. I'm worried, but I'm not as fearful as I was waiting to see what mood he was in. I was wound tighter than a spring. The inherent stress is still there but I am hugely relieved too.
Many conflicting emotions but I'm not anxious about his impact on my life now. I'm feeling freer. Its all my decisions and I don't have to carry my phone around in case I miss his call. I don't have to keep checking that I've missed an email.
My 'what if' happened but it wasn't as bad as I expected.