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Mirandac wrote:

Your doing great Rose, we are all a work in process. Alot of us
Come from abuse but differing levels. We need to rise above
That and let God fill us up with his love. You can not change
The past only ultimately forgive and move on and love yourself!


 Hey Mirandac, I have to keep reminding me....I am a work in PROCESS.....i do want to think about love, as to forgiving, well, I asked HP to help me give up the hate and resentment which has lessened greately and YES....I want to MOVE ON!!  some crimes are not forgivable, but its encombant of me to let go the hate...which , really, most of the time, they just DO NOT EXIST......and i want soooo to move on...i see it in inches happening....guess i need to relax...don't rush...I have the rest of my life....as Linda said.......Mirandac, thank you and I am working, asking HP to help me love myself........one day at a time........Hugs



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OMG...I can't believe it

Was going to work, looking for a ups store on the way and didn't transfer off freeway to the southbound fwy headed to work

i felt the anger at me come up, but then i just threw up my hands and said....'well if u don't want to pay attention, I am not gonna fight you anymore....so you drive longer to work...your lesson....."

and i was OK..i just turned around, went back, then got my 2nd freeway and got on

arrived 15 min late, but no worries it was b4 expected time so all worked out

i noticed i was calmer, not angry at me.....it is what it is.....

AND  there is HS reunion coming up and they wanted a RSVP  b/c they need to know the seating number

I wrote and told them, I would not be attending these events, b/c  #1, it is an enormous expense and hassle for me to go back east.......and #2, and wait till u see this

I wrote to them that I would not be coming b/c in that school, I was a transferee from a rival football school and i also had a very bad family and thus i was bullied and/or shunned and thus, even tho I forgave and moved on, i just don't want to remember those days anymore....I am happy where i am at and i wished them a happy "re-bonding" experience and I signed my name to it......

got an email from a classmate apologizing to me....I thanked her and said she never harmed me and i said she was nice to write me

my GF wrote me and said  "GOOD FOR U"  and she said that my letter was brave, kind and to the point.....she loved it

YEA..program works if I work it................HUGS and HAPPY FRIDAY



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smile  Sounds like she making amends for the collective lot of classmates....she was the messenger.  I am glad you received the message..another freeing experience.



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