I have been thinking, reading & writing a lot lately & I realized that part of my year was awful but then the end of it ended very well. I am so grateful that 2014 is over but I really am trying not to hang on to the negative things from the past. I don't want to dwell on it. Every day is a blank page to fill w/ new memories & special moments. I want to fill up each page & keep my life in check. I want to make my life better so I can help others. I want to make changes in me that I am capable of making for me & only me. In this way I feel I can be selfish. Those things that I have discovered about myself lately that have been lingering in my mind that have affected my serenity are going to have to go. I need to start w/ me. I am contented in myself enough that I can share me w/ others. I don't have to change anything inside myself unless it bothers me.

So, this could possibly better than last year if I look at the whole picture. It can only be seen through my eyes one day at a time though. I have a right to change my mind daily as to what I see as a blessing. I haven't been short-changed in the blessing dept. I have always been able to see my blessings. I just haven't counted them enough.

I have a right to have my voice heard. I don't feel like anyone really doesn't hear me, sometimes they just don't listen. So, here I am sharing my innermost thoughts. I am more than willing to give this a shot.

My thoughts are somewhat racing right now so I will let the rest go until next time.

I am figuring that the next time you will hear from me will be on Monday the 5th. I don't have access to MIP until then. I can see posts but I really can't post anything. I guess something is better than nothing. I am can't always come up w/ the right words on here anyway. I am too critical. Maybe that is something I should work on in this new year. I have a list!

Kathleen