The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I have been affected by alcoholism and the symptoms that grew within me stopped me living life. Life was drudgery, drama,chaos and waiting for the next round. My teen years, my twenties and most of my thirties, gone now and I lived those years in darkness. Now I have a taste of life since becoming a member of alanon. Life has came into clear view and although its not perfect and I still get caught up in worry and what ifs from time to time. I feel like I cant get enough of living. Its like a light has been switched on and I can see, Im brave enough to look at me now and im getting into the corners bit by bit. Im brave enough to look at life and the truth of it. I never realised how important truth is to me. I cant believe how much Alanon has changed me and changed my life. Its amazing. I want to squeeze as much out of life as I can before im too old. Thanks alanon and all alanoners, truth seekers.x
Truth seekers is a great description
I feel much as you do el-cee. Admittedly sometimes it all seems too hard and unfair still but I don't have any desire to stay in that kind of thinking anymore, I just don't get a pay-off from it now. I'm much more interested in learning new ways to create my own peace and happiness, and it gets easier and easier to do that. What a gift!
Thanks to you too!!
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
Thank you for sharing that el-cee. When I was finally able to climb out of that dark hole caused by alcoholism and step out into the sunshine and feel the warmth, I knew there would be no going back. I refuse to be pulled backwards into that dark isolation again. If someone could have shown me 8 months ago where I would be today, I would not have believed them. I choose to take one day at a time and to keep things simple.
I am thankful that by the Grace of God I was led to Al-Anon.
It works if you work it.
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