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I've got a yukky cold, which is no surprise as it has been making its way throughout this household.
So I woke this morning to find it had really taken hold. Yay! Oh well, lol, whatever. Coughs and sneezes and chills, not the end of the world. Just a temporary irritation.
I had 2 phone calls I needed to make. I have 2 things weighing heavily on me at the moment...1) Things are pretty unpleasant where I live and I want to be able to rent a place of my own, yesterday. 2) I don't have a computer (am using daughters ancient laptop which freezes or shuts down every 5 minutes and cannot manage any of the tasks I need it to do for study, writing or anything useful).
The first call was to the real estate agent to find out if my bond has been released yet or if I need to start legal proceedings of my own. I was told, my agent is away sick, there is nothing on file, no-one can help me today, and I need to wait some more, call back in a few days. Sigh, OK, fine.
The second call was to the computer repair shop where I left my drowned laptop and my previous laptop which had been smashed by former ABF. I had hoped and prayed one of them could be repaired and perhaps some components consolidated to leave me with a workable machine. I learned that both machines are fubared and not even worth a few dollars of trade in. This was...disappointing...I had to work not to be upset as I had sort of hoped at least the older machine was going to be viable if a bit banged up. I have a lot of work to do.
So I decided to lay on my bed and collect my thoughts for a few moments and I switched on my fan; I like to have the fan on for noise and I like having the air moving a bit, it's a comfort thing. So after a few minutes I noticed a weird smell and when I looked over the fan's motor had caught fire. Goody!
After I had extinguished it I just lay there giggling for a long time. What is happening here? It's like some kind of awful movie!!!!
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
Life's lessons are hard won. I had so many trials that finally helped me to develop patience and acceptance,that I think I can see these lessons unfolding for you. Trust that HP has your back and that this is all a learning experiience.
ugh that is a drag about computer. now i got my first one thru a company that gives students a deal to pay monthly. check around? Supposedly Amazon has super deals right now.
See you need a computer, think of YOU. spoil you when you can and get a good laptop!
Life is like that, just part of it hon. I do sure get it. I hate it when I get some weird mail that I know needs me to call and it is Saturday. ugh.
Come over and help me cover my dang barn windows would you??? lol Watch it will start snowing and there will go debilyn running to the barn to fix them.....did you put something out for mail?
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Putting HP first, always <(*@*)>
"It's not so much being loved for ourselves, but more for being loved in spite of ourselves."
hi meliss. I am so very sorry that all of this is happening. I like what HR said, and I know HP has your back. Hang in there because something better is just around the bend.
((meliss))
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Look for the rainbow after the storm, and I'm sending you a double dose of HOPE. H-hold O-on P-pain E-ends
Mel it might be in the lesson of letting go absolutely. I've learned often that when all of it is gone there are no distractions between HP and myself. HP wants it that way. ((((hugs))))
Really I just thought it was funny, when the fan caught fire I just about had a fit laughing lol.
I've given up trying to work out what any of it means.
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If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see? (Lewis Caroll)
(((Meliss))) I'm sorry it's been such a long road in trying to get situated! There are times when I feel like HP is clearing my path with a toothpick, but I accept it as part of the process- a growing pain necessary before sprinting forward. Sending prayers.