The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
are truly none of my business. Having been an inventory taker forever, only now its guided, I have tended to probe another's mind many times,always trying to understand, analysing and weighing,probing some more. Great skill for journalism,absolutely crap skill for interpersonal relationships with addicted creatures. Circles like a whirlpool in the ocean sucking you down. There is no answer,no logic,no equity. A total lack of meaningful insight is what I see in most addicts, and a lack of desire to go deeper,for they are shallow fish in a stormy rockpool. I think about what I want in relationships. Honesty,thoughtfulness and a spiritual covenant with the creator which is honoured practically. I long to have this relationship with myself. Also, I am loving the things I find attractive of late. I had thought of injecting away some lines on my face, yet what stops me is this deep desire to accept myself. I see articles of women going grey haired and boldly refusing to dye, and I am deeply attracted to the energy behind that choice. Death and aging, lifes only guarantees. Oh grant me the serenity and courage to accept these guarantees. I'm loving many things that come with these new lines, how less dramatic new knowledge is,and how freeing. To know another's inventory is none of my concern is simply marvellous.
I only need to take other's inventories to the degree it is necessary in order to either accept them in my life or create distance. Not having to fully understand everyone and everything is freeing.
Inventorying insanity is like building on wet sand. Both actions are exercises in futility if we want serenity and to reach a self-chosen goal. It sounds to me as if you are choosing to let the insanity be what it is and to set your sights on being the best true self you can be?
