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Debilyn


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It's freaking cold here in ole Oregon.

I think back to other winters being stuck with a sick A who never smiled and how heavy it made me inside.

Well now i am heavy on the outside from being too happy. lol

Life is good, a couple friends and I rescued four pot bellied pigs from being eaten, gross. So I am enjoying four little black scoundrels running all over the place. they use two litter boxes. Its so fun to hear their little hoovies tramping all over and driving my pot girl Prudie nuts.

A lost yellow lab was here, Budi. Was so much fun, he was only four and we threw a ball LOTS. It was so neat to have a dog who wanted to chase and play.Mine are all eight to eleven. His owner leaves his dog with his brother sometimes. well owner thought bro had him, bro thot his bro had him...oops. no debilyn the sucker a mile down the road has him....lol he had a blast chewen on toys and goofen around. perfect dog.

Been making myself see people more to get my dose of humans.I like it.If I feel icky I call and go shop with them or whatever This mom and daughter are funny. Just simple and real. More neighbors have stopped and talked I like that. Next door is almost done. Looks so nice. I want to landscape it a bit then rent it week ends, vacation spot this spring and summer. We have a cool golf course five miles away, swimming, fishing, camping boating in this area. Thought that might be a way to make some bucks. Put up a little fence for their dog or whatever.

My mind is so much mellower. I feel like me again. Took lots of years. I still remember being so afraid I would never love the dirt again, not appreciate the sky, or a windy wet day. I was honestly frightened.

My life is a miracle. I have lived almost sixty two years. its still weird though to look in the mirror which I avoid. I mean I like me, I did like it though when I could throw on jeans and a top and notworry about them falling off and my tummy sticking out...but at least I am healthy. not dying anyway. lol

made a new friend. Pig person. She is Italian, cracks me up. also grew up a JW. We are partners in crime when it comes to animals and people.

No one around to say how he does not get me giving someone five bucks for gas, or not get I don't have to ask him if I want to go somewhere. and why do i talk to these strangers online. NO complaining. I hate a person who complains all the time. Imean its natural tovent sometimes, but the constant..ugh so nice now.

I don't have to hope he will find recovery  again, or he will stop hurting all the time, be concerned over his tinitis, or him stealing my meds, or money.

I have it so good. I still miss the guy who was my friend. I know he misses me too. no question. But that is a relief too.no more hopes or dreams as far as him. Just my own.

I stand at my fence and look in. cute house big maple tree, white four by four pickup  nine cute dogs, two geese hollering at the intruder... me, ducks chickens. My horse running up to me.piggies hollering at me tofeed them.

I have a home.I am rich with miracles and friends. hugs all

 



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Lovely post and message Deb. You have worked hard and I am pleased you are feeling the benfits.

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Great post- inspiring, authentic, and insightful. I can relate and am so grateful for Alanon, the support and the tools to live a life of recovery and blessings.

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Broke out in a smile reading this post and it's still on my face and in my heart also.  You're connected much more deeply and often than a lot of us other human Deb...I connect with birds and mo`o (lizards), some dogs and such.  You're on a higher level...HP entrusts you with more.  I keep working at it.   Stay you...pleeeeez (((hugs))) smile



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Thanks for the update. Sounds like your animals keep you busy! Busy is good! So...how do you rescue pigs from being eaten? I am picturing people standing around a bonfire getting ready to bbq them...lol...or do you mean you rescued them from other wild animals wanting to eat them? Just curious.

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DEBILYN!!!!!!!!!!! I can't tell you how happy your post made me - especially the part about you getting your "human" fixes. I love that you love and nurture animals and I love that you are spending time with people who do, too. xxxooo, xxxooo, xxxooo

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You are a blessing and blessed, Debilyn.



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Oh what beautiful lively pictures you have painted for us here. Thank you Debilyn for sharing your world with us. I always laugh at guarding geese - they take it so seriously!

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