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Tomorrow I go back to the job where the boss thinks I am not a mom....I will go with a smile on my face...if wifey asks me what i did over weekend, i will proudly say i hung out w/my daughter and leave it at that..nothing more.......if the jerk says anything , I will say "i give respect and I want it in return" then I will walk off...close conversation, mind my own business, do my job.....leave the place with my integrity in tact b/c I took care of me....
This one job is different then the others where I work...there is none of this need to put one down on the part of my other places...Here, i have to be careful...it is what it is...even at my other places, I am cool about what i share...i do more listening to other's shares then i talk about me...i just don't share personal stuff, much at work...never was a good idea to me...I keep my personals to my FOC, or my kids or mostly the recovery boards....where I am SAFE....My trust is earned and that takes time..even so, the workplace is where i go to earn my $$...that is all!!!
also on sis in law's facebook, i am gonna just keep my posts generic...she is a really nice gal and i like her, i will just be careful what i put on HER board.....she would never "tattle" what she hears from anyone..she is cool...known her for a long time...i just need to be careful what i post on whose board
I am ok..not worried...I know who/what I am and where I am at in life....My children love me and my family of choice loves me and THOSE are the ones who matter....I asked myself "how important is HE??" rather then "IT" even tho he is kinda of an "it" i just asked me how important is this guy's opinions and i quickly was able to put this in perspective.....i guess being judged/ putdown/ wrongly assessed in a negative way/ attacked/ demeaned/ discounted by those bio people i cut myself off from is still somewhat of a trigger....its mine to work on, but coming here and venting and hearing some HEALTHY responses, helps me get back on track and thinking good......
we all need each other and the mutual give/take we get on this community is really cool....I always try my best to put out good energy, esh, etc., and I always get the help i need when i need it.........i am fine with the exception of this tendonitis on my left arm (elbow) , its awful , nagging pain that just won't go away, so i am gonna have to really change how i exercise this part of my body when i do my workouts.....but thats another story, lol and i have a facebook friend who is former physical therapist and she is giving me therapy esh on this.......
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
You sound great, Neshema. It is outside of the "rooms" I get to see my stuff and practice my program.
Oh yea, let me out to "play" and then i found out if i play well with others or not, LOL......yep, tomorrow, i am flying on my alanon i'll be ok....he can't do much if i refuse to pick up the rope he throws down........thanks ((((P))))
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Happy take care of yourself day on Friday, N. Good to hear from you today, too!
you know when his dad backed off, sorta, and let the sons take over, the place is different....dad is still king...he can get a 200k loan on his WORD...not those boys...sorry but that is the truth....Mr. Bill can walk into a person's office and walk out w/200K and a handshake on payment terms.....I'm not so attached to the place as he has wound down, but as long as hes there, there is something nice for me to go to....I don't see the old king being shoved out so easily AND he won't let this son run the company into the ground either....I will just show up...do my best....leave....i need this job, so i have to be cool....i can....i am in recovery and i really really want to interact healthy, even with those who are less then desirable......good to see u too, (((((C)))))
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
Happy take care of yourself day on Friday, N. Good to hear from you today, too!