The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I sure have missed you all. I've been on a mini vacation with AH. We went camping and did some fishing. The dang fish weren't biting, though. But the river was absolutely beautiful and the weather was gorgeous.
I was remembering a few months ago (almost 6 months). Had God not led me to Al-Anon, I'm not sure where I would be or what kind of condition I would be in. I am so thankful to my HP! And while that old self doubt tried to sneak in its pesky "what ifs" kind of thinking, I was able to use my Al-Anon tools and sweep it back out of my mind.
While fishing, I was doing some personal inventory and realized how my attitude is changing. Where I once felt anger, resentment and rage, I'm now feeling pity and pain for my AH. I hurt for him. I have reached the point where I can see past the wicked disease and see the man I fell in love with almost 40 years ago. And while I was looking at him at the front of the boat fishing, I was able to fully understand the Al-Anon slogan >>Let Go and Let God.
One day at a time.
It works if you work it.
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Look for the rainbow after the storm, and I'm sending you a double dose of HOPE. H-hold O-on P-pain E-ends
Well, you were missed! Your vacation sounds like a little slice of heaven. You have a big heart to feel what you feel for your hubbie...I hope there is room for you in that big heart
I think your post is pretty powerful. I imagine when this program was being developed the founders hoped this was the outcome for women living with alcoholism. Replacing the negative thinking with new positive thoughts to me is serenity.
It sure does work if we work it. Thanks for such a peaceful, insightful share.