The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I've been feeling pretty down, found out I've been betrayed once again in a 4 year relationship once again ended it. I dont hurt as much this time. Realizing we both have 2 different sets of morals.
I've been looking for a sponsor an getting finding rejection, one of the 3 groups I attend the leader was upset at me an showed it during the meeting because I approach her before letting her know the same member 3weeks in a row not only cross talked but did so putting the new member down an they did want to come back. this was also the first group I ever attended an they did not give me any phone numbers yet Ive seen them give other new members numbers.
ive been on speed dial with my HP, came here a few days ago looking for support, (awesome, wonder, people here full of wisdom) I learned more here in the last few days then I have in the last 2 months at meetings. So last night I went to
a new meeting, it's further 2 hour round trip, but I now have a sponsor (((Yah)))) We both agreed to give it a try, I'm
excited, i feel comfortable around her. Then the icing on the cake. on the way home there's huge bare mountain all along the
columbia river. of course it's dark, I look up, there's a huge brightly lite cross on one of the mountains, I've driven that route many times over the last 20 Years I've never seen it. I stared in disbelief mouth open, thinking Ive never seen that there before, almost like it was My HP saying, I'm here, I care, I'm guiding you, keep up the trust, faith an hope. I kept staring at the cRoss expecting it to disappear, but it didn't. I had to share, feeling inspired! Thank you again for all your inspiration
Last night I was trying to tell everyone at the meeting about this message board an how wonderful it is, but I could nt remember the name, miracles in progress, I won't forget now.
your last comment caught me off guard. I must feel safe here. I'm generally a very emotional person, cry easily the last
few months I've become very guarded. I was beginning to think I forgot how to cry, your caring comment brought unexpected deep burning healing tears. : )
I'm happy to see that you are letting affection and care for you in, sister. You are doing a wise thing in walking through doors of different rooms and find the place where you fit. Sounds like you've found this room as a place to come and stay awhile - not as others would have you to be but as you are - and that is a very good woman from what I've seen here. Keep coming back and being you. Glad you're here.
