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I just pay too much attention to the time it's taking me to get it, not only that then I can forget I actually got it and thats where reminders come in, other peoples, I am sooooooooooooo hard on myself most times always wanting to be independent always wanting things to end on a good note, I forget I am only part of the equasion and all I have to do is my bit thats all just my bit, I am impatient too yep always have been I need to see it feel it to learn it, sometimes those things don't come hand in hand and I panic if it's not all happening I think it's not working but it is I just haven't got it yet.
The most genuine and deeply loving woman I have ever experienced in my lifetime was addressing a workshop of people gathered for the purpose of learning ways to become all they were meant to be in this life. I remember her sharing a story from her life when she and a friend had been discussing when they might have themselves together as they wanted to be. Both were fairly certain they'd probably be in their 40s when this would be a reality for them. She looked out at the entire room of people who had been soaking up every word she said (she knew how to speak to the human heart like no other I have ever met) and said: "I am now 72 years of age and I almost have myself together." She died within 2 years of this statement. It was also her belief that no one would ever have themselves totally together in this mortal life and put it this way: "Until total unity" meaning until that within us that never dies returns to the Source. Perhaps she died and is now exactly where she wanted herself to be? I don't know. What I do know is that where we are today and who we are today is enough. You are enough as you are, Katy, today. Enough to see the sun if it is shining. Enough to feel the warmth of it on your skin. Enough to hear the birds sing. Enough to taste and savor whatever touches your nose and taste buds. Enough to walk from one end of a garden to another. Enough to look in a mirror at yourself and say, "I see you. I love you. You are beautiful."
At my age, I truly believe that each one of us are but another face of the same Source of life that sustains us. We are not the Source and yet we are one with it and one with all that exists. We wear masks. We put defenses up against that Source. We deny it, ignore it or hide from it. We try to run from it. But I have learned I simply can't escape the reality of a Power greater than me that lives and moves and has It's Being in me and in others. That Power is called by different names and yet I do believe it is the same Power. I don't have myself where I want myself yet either and I am making progress together with you. (((K)))
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Awwww Katy, you received a most beautiful gift through Catherine's words...soak them in, roll around in them and just them take you over. Blessings to you...
Hi Katy. I understand about the time limits. I went into Al-Anon full force. I wanted to be fix and be fix NOW. Needless to say, it doesn't work that way. I didn't get like this over night, and I'm not going to be fixed over night. It's going to take time, probably a work in progress for the rest of my life, and that's ok.
I love what Grateful said about being enough. While I am not where I want to be, I am enough as I am for today. As long as I keep working my program, I'll be enough.
Thanks Grateful for those wonderful words of wisdom.
Take one day at a time.
It works if you work it.
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