The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I've been going to 3-4 different Alanon meetings each week for the last 4 months. I've made numerous attempts to find a sponsor. I've spent time getting familiar with other members learning who's been there long enough to even sponsor. If those few Ive tried i either have been encourage to find a sponsor just not them, theyre so busy they don't call back or this last attempt (meaning Ive run out of people to ask) I mentioned before the meeting I was interested in finding a Sponsor, then after the meeting my several attempts to be part of the conversation were ignored until I gave up said good night they both immediately responded goodnight. I've given this to my higher power, I'm trying to accept that maybe I'm not suppose to have a sponsor an have to figure out things on my own. I'm really hurt regarding last night so much that I don't even want to go back, (I realize that only hurts me but if I don't feel supporte?) I feel kind of like it was hard enough to reach out ask for help only to be rejected. I'm struggling any input, Newpaths (don't feel to much like new paths right now)
I'm sorry that your search for a sponsor hasn't resulted in the desired outcome. I wasn't really ready for a sponsor for awhile, but I did keep attending meetings, listening, making friends with some in the fellowship, reading my readers and doing other things that were helpful for me outside Al-Anon. Perhaps what you say is true? "...maybe I'm not supposed to have a sponsor"(yet). Figuring things out on your own - well, that I do find myself wondering about. An ancient saying "When the student is ready, the teacher appears." comes to my mind. Maybe you, like me, aren't ready for the sponsor that your HP is going to introduce to you at the perfect time? There are times that folks have wanted me to sponsor them and because of my own issues at the time to include previous commitments or the need to take more time for me than what is usual, I have turned them down. There are also other occasions when I know that I'm simply not a good match for that person and I decline in order for them to have a better chance to meet the person who is right for them. If you are experiencing the meetings to be helpful then not attending would be hurtful to you? If people aren't responding to your request for a sponsor right now, then it does make sense to me for you to stop asking for a bit without giving up on that desire for a sponsor for you. I'm glad to see that you've turned this all into your HP's hands and aren't choosing to force solutions.
-- Edited by grateful2be on Tuesday 23rd of September 2014 11:07:37 AM
-- Edited by grateful2be on Tuesday 23rd of September 2014 11:08:34 AM
Mmmmm, well if I'm interpreting that correctly. That would be the room where I go to contemplate, think spend tine with my HP because I often find comfort, peace serenity there
That's a wonderful room to visit, NP! I love that response. The question is actually meant as my signature to go with the avatar. I am happy you saw it and an answer to it came to you.
-- Edited by grateful2be on Tuesday 23rd of September 2014 08:41:49 PM
