Why are 3 day weekends so short and 4 day work weeks soooo long? LOL?  I'm just exhausted at the moment and all of us have been battling some form of illness.  I think we are all mostly on the mend.  Tomorrow night I am the Alanon speaker for a birthday meeting and that is pretty exciting.  I have a vague idea of what I want to say and am praying for the right words and allowing me to speak the way I need to.  I will get up and write out some note cards as to what I want to say. 

No court date and I'm just beyond frustrated at the moment .. it's just hard to continually be told nothing is moving forward and no new information.  I guess for now it's ok.  I got scared I was having a signs of an ulcer earlier last week .. I think I had a bug of some kind I do feel better.  I'm grateful I have insurance and the kids and I will be going next week. 

The nightmare that is my STBAX, he has isolated the kids to the point they have told me they will see him once for 2 1/2 hours that is it and honestly that's fine.  He had a terrible conversation via text with our daughter and by the time it was over between the smoke coming out of her ears.  She did well and was just more angry about the conversation he tried to drag her into.  I did really well in not reacting to it.  You know what .. he reserves the right to be as sick as he wants to be and I'm really ok with that because it just opens my mind more to the fact that I'm really not putting up with a bunch of BS behavior from him. 

On a positive note .. my son is running cross country, he's had one meet already and another one planned this weekend.  He's now playing the flute and just having a great year at school.  He is wore out is putting it mildly.  My daughter is trying out for the state orchestra with clarinet, she is talking about signing up for a trip to Japan in 2016 (I'm really going to try and do everything to see if I can make that happen for her), she was also asked to the homecoming that is coming up literally in 3 weeks.  It was SOOOO CUTE how she was asked and I'm soooo grateful that she experienced this because I told her THAT is how someone who LIKES you is suppose to treat you.  It's crazy how fast this stuff is all coming right now with school.  She's signed back up for her Scholastic Bowl stuff and that should be starting again soon for her as well.  Busy doesn't cover what is happening in our lives at the moment and I wonder why I don't know if I am coming or going .. lol.  My job is going very well.  I've got some things planned out to do during the fall for myself and I'm working on being more independent of the kids in terms of what I go and do from time to time.  I have soooo much to do around the house honestly for a while that will keep me busy on a full time basis.  I'm just trying to get organized and that will happen it's just making the time for it.  It's more fun to hang out with the kids at the moment .. lol. 

We are all trying to move forward .. I just wish he would just go away already and leave us in peace .. we are all doing very well holding our own without allowing his behavior to be that much of a distraction.  In a smaller town it's hard and this weekend was an awfully awkward moment of running into him while we were out and about which should have been his visitation weekend .. unfortunately after his behavior and words with our daughter she said ohhh nooo.  My son also came to me with a similar request before he acted out with her.  Ohhh .. NOOOOO registration on the green car and no sign of the truck .. that's a different issue and seriously speaking he's going to once again find himself on the wrong end of the law over that issue if he forged MY name on the paperwork. 

Hugs S :)