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Newlife girl


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Went to a meeting this morning. It was sad and depressing. This is my home group...but I have decided it no longer fits me. People do not have a lot of recovery and I find it sad and it brings me down. People come in really late and today 3 or 4 people left early. I found it annoying and disturbing. Plus theres a lot of traffic to get there. Had lunch with my best friend, so that was nice. 

got together with my sponsor and she really helped me a lot..she had me thinking about my loneliness and what I really need and want. But then I became overwhelmed with all the juggling of bills I have to do after I got home. I haven't gotten any money from AH in almost 2 months so I finally caved in and asked my mom for help with money. She was fine with helping me, but we agreed she can't keep helping me forever. AH always gives me vague answers about money. So I have stopped asking him about it...as of today. Tired of the merry go round of crazy answers and no action from him. He has an excuse for everything he does or doesn't do. It's exhausting to go through all these changes. 

I have to file divorce papers, it's the next step. I want to force a sale on our house so I can hopefully get some money out of it. I deserve it, and so do my kids. I've owned the house for 20 years! And it has equity. Time to get off the pot!! I don't have time to wait and play games with him. Enough is enough. So I cried for about 2 hours. I am exhausted. 



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I am sorry NewLifeGirl . It is a difficult  time and you are showing up and keeping the focus on yourself.

Trust HP as you are not alone. Prayers and positive thoughts. 



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Thank you Betty.

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KennyFenderjazz


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This is really hard. You are doing a good job through this, staying focused and as positive as you can. Also letting go of another piece of dealing with AH is positive. This too shall pass.

Kenny

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Sounds like you are growing...and experiencing harsh growing pains. It's worth it though.

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In my own experience, I seldom make changes until I get very uncomfortable with the way I've been and the things I've been doing that no longer fit me. Once I'm too uncomfortable, I step into the unknown with the help of my HP and find out that the unknown holds many new opportunities for me rather than a host of troubles that my "what if machine" shot out often. You are not alone as you know and your HP can and will guide you as you act on knowing what you need to do and doing it. (((NLG)))

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el-cee


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That sounds like moving on and away from the insanity, good for you. You will feel so much better.x

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It sounds as if you are embarking on anew journey Newlife Girl, and I can completely relate to the nerves. Everything that you are now doing seems to be for you and I'm sure that this is a good thing - it sounds like an exciting place. I believe that you can do it well and I'm sending prayers that none of it is as difficult as you fear. ((((Hugs)))).

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It sounds like being in limbo so long is really getting you down. Sounds like you are facing things and almost ready to take the plunge. Sometimes going fw makes many other things better.

Sending you hope and strength!



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