Abf has been really tired and working hard,he stayed quiet all the way back from the dr.then he zipped up into a buddy of his but buddy was gone we left and went to where he was working at to get his van another buddy of his we stayed for a little I visited with his buddy which I like him as a friend then my abf was thirsty for alcohol so I decided we go in my car since it was parked behind his van got to the beer store he came out and said he wished that beeping sound would stop I don't know what he was talking about he smarted off to me I smarted back to him he said he was sorry he was just tired or whatever ,I mentioned getting a fishplate he said he couldn't eat but 2pcs of fish and that it was a waste to him so I said what about mexican he got quiet so soon as we got back to his buddy's he got out and I didn't even go into say goodbye to his friend I jumped in my car and pulled out and abf just stood there beside his van looking at me or something he didn't say a thing to me or try to stop me I left and come back home,I do t know what he is doing maybe I'm thinking picked a fight or aimed to make me mad to get me to leave so his mistress could come to see him,well it worked if that was the case I dunno he was hurting all over and really tired.dont know how much more this old gal can take just called him he said he sitting on his friends couch tired still I fussed at him and we hung up is it me or what am I doing wrong I told him it's like everything's aimed at me ,something ain't right maybe he is in a lot of pain cause of his yrs of a useing his body with a/d ,he isn't as young as he use to be we r both 8 yrs older but I'm fine nothing like him but I don't have to work like he does his work is carpentry work and he is older now takeing effect on him now,my kids are both grown and out married daughter with 3kids of her own liveing military life,son liveing 40 miles from me got a great job and fixxing to get married here in nov. I e got 2beautiful kids and great I keep them completely out of my drama I don't want them knowing a thing ,and I hope with all y'all's loveing care here in alanon and my friends help I can survive this trauma .