Where you are now is exactly where I was mentally and emotionally in my job as a claims adjuster where the parts that I had loved were cut out and I was left with stuff that made me a glorified keypunch operator. I told my HP that I would continue to do my best where I was to carry out HP's will as long as I was there. All negativity was gone from me and yet I also knew I wouldn't be there for a long, long time. Within a few months of that prayer, I was hired to create the organization from which I just retired. I was offered the job on the same day my supervisor called me in at review time and told me I wouldn't be receiving a raise that year. The reason was due to their changing the quota on the number of worksheets I needed to process in the same month that was review month for all employees. Before I even knew I had the other job, I gave my two weeks notice. I told my boss that I was being taken advantage of and that I had worked too hard and too long to let anybody use me for any reason. She agreed that I was being used by the company. I resigned. That night, I got a call from one of the interviewers for the organization start up asking me "How much money will it take for you to take the position and create the organization for us?" You're on your way, TT. You're on your way to something good.

-- Edited by grateful2be on Monday 14th of July 2014 08:38:13 PM

Moving out of fear into faith in our HP, the source of all that we need to be true to ourselves, always results in experiencing gratitude and hope.

Well done tt, I think you handled this brilliantly, alanon tools used in all aspects of life. You have awareness, acceptamce and action and its freedom. Happy for you, excited for youmfor what comes next.x

Congratulations for moving on! I love that you spoke up for yourself and did your best to set boundaries! So funny that your "old" supervisor took you to lunch- the woman who did nothing for you- as if a lunch would square things up where you would be indebted for eternity (must have been one wicked lunch!). You have your serenity and integrity- what a winning combination!

Thank you (((((everyone))))) for all of your encouragement.

I got my feelings out in the open today with my former supervisor.  I still have some work to finish for her even though I've gone to another department. She asked how things were going.  I told her I had never wanted to leave the old department and asked if there had been any dissatisfaction with my work or expressed by my team. She told me no.  I said I felt my new position was no different in scope than my last aside from having to learn the work style and priorities of the new team, I told her it would have been easier for me to just have been able to stay with the old team.  She pointed out that the workload in my prior job had increased tremendously. She stated that it was why I'd told her I'd chosen to prioritize getting a job in a different department when reapplying for jobs within the company right now. I told her that that was true but that I was now aware that a special position had been created for another coworker in my department and when that coworker refused the position, I felt it would have been nice if someone had spoken up and voiced that I might be a good fit for that position. She knew I mean't her. I asked if there was a personality issue. She said there wasn't.  I said that it was evident where my passions lie because I had taken related courses on my own and expressed interest around this work and shown initiative to be involved in the work. She said she could speak with her supervisor about mixing in some of the work from my former department with my current department. LOL  This is exactly what she would have me do because they are overloaded and I know the job but that job has been degraded to one mundane task all day long.  I wanted the specialized job they expressly made for this other woman which she refused. I'd taken the initiative on my own to become qualified for that job last year before it was even made. I still made it clear to her that I wasn't interested in the task oriented work she was trying to get me to agree to. Of course I didn't say it in that way.  After I was done saying my piece, she said, I don't know what to say. I said, you don't have to say anything, I just want you to know how I feel about things. It seems to me that some of us here just can't move up no matter what we do.

There weren't many of us in today and it was obvious that she went off with the highest ranking person of my new department to talk. Later in the afternoon I went to this person to update her as to what plans I'd put in place for learning my new job and tying up loose ends from my former job. She promised me the sky and moon as far as being one of the team. It was very evident they had talked.  I just told her that would be great in a nice way and left it at that. It's almost as if they can't afford to have anyone else leave right now. Who will do the work? 

Anyway, I'm glad I cleared the air and told my former supervisor my thoughts on how things have gone down concerning my job placement. Now I'll just go forward and don't look back.  If they throw me a curve ball next week, I'll deal with that too. I'm continuing to look elsewhere. Thanks for letting me share with you. (((hugs))  TT

You were soooooooooooooo very honest, TT. That, to me, takes courage and humility. No matter what the outcome of sharing your true thoughts and feelings with this gal, I'll bet you felt peaceful and grounded? If so, what a gift you gave yourself in your willingness to say what you mean, mean what you say and not say it mean. She didn't know what to say because you weren't playing a game. You were being you. That is disarming to others who are open to it in my experience. Good work!