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The kids are with their dad and they spent a short time or what I would call a short time with him yesterday. Apparently he is still driving the green car and I do believe there are some hiccups because the kids asked him straight out if he bought it. His answer .. sort of .. how do you sort of buy a car .. well .. I guess if you haven't taken care of your fines and you can't register a car in your name that's how you sort of buy a car. I don't think he can afford it really.
Anyway, I don't care and it will come up at the next trial date on 7/1!!!! WOOT WOOT!! 9 days and counting .. OMGOSH .. I don't know how to act I'm over the moon .. I'm nervous, which makes me very shall we say off the cuff .. that means I'm very non-filtered at the moment. So I really need to keep my feet on the ground.
Today I did something I have never done .. I left the kids with the idea their dad was going to pick them up. He must have because they weren't home when I got here and that's a good thing. Yesterday he went and purchased a skateboard for our youngest .. what kind of ticks me off is that of course there was no discussion about the skateboard, .. personally a bike would have been more practical .. you now what would be usable and practical except this is about him being the "fun" dad (that means the yes dad .. keep it up buttercup I think those days are ending soon) .. so I'm letting it go until the first hospital bill and then let all hell reign.
I went to a really nice AA outing .. it's actually suppose to be our big Alanon/AA event and what do you know .. no Alanon presence .. I was surprised and then why should I be .. until I started doing AA open meetings there was NO involvement between our AA and Alanon groups. It is so sad that it's like this .. however it is what it is .. I always thought there was suppose to be some kind of support .. I will always want to know what happened between these two groups that left everyone so wary. The good thing to come out of this is that at least there are now open AA meetings that offer AA and Alanon sponsors .. that would NOT have happened had I not started the communication between the two groups. Like I said before .. ignorance is bliss .. it didn't involve me so whatever has happened at least now there is SOME kind of communication and camaraderie between these two groups. It has really pissed some old timers off in the Alanon group here .. I don't know about AA .. I figure I would know if it had .. AA tends not to be filtered in their opinions .. LOL.
It was beautiful and the first 20 min I was uncomfortable in terms I felt guilty for leaving the kids .. then I thought .. no .. I'm NOT doing anything wrong. Their dad is suppose to be there and if he's not .. I will address it when I get home .. or let it go until court .. yes, the kids will be disappointed they didn't come with me .. there is food in the house .. they can play outside .. they do not lack in wants or needs. This day is about ME and what I WANT to do .. next weekend I'm all theirs. After I got through that discomfort .. I had a REALLY great time. I saw my friend who relapsed .. I'm very glad to see her back in the program .. I don't see us doing the friend thing .. we did at least get through that awkward initial seeing each other deal. I miss her .. I'm just so glad to see her back into AA .. I can love her and cheer for her from afar and be ok with that. My other friend started apologizing saying she didn't know she would be there and I told her .. it was fine .. just shocking and this too shall pass .. not a big deal.
So I'm home again bathrooms are cleaned and I'm staring at dishes in the sink .. I should do those .. LOL .. and I will .. I just want to relax as I need to vacuum. It was nice to catch up .. that group has had some hard losses recently a young man in his 20's and a young woman in her 30's with two young children .. breaks my heart to hear about stories like that .. it really goes to show a body can only take so much stress before it goes pop.
Hope everyone experienced similar weather and enjoyed it if they were able to get outside.
Hugs S :)
-- Edited by SerenityRUS on Sunday 22nd of June 2014 03:46:44 PM
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Only 9 days to go. Can you believe you've gotten this far? I hope your stress level isn't so high you think your body will go pop? If so, dishes can wait. Vacuuming can wait. If any visitor to your house complains, you can always show them where you keep the dish soap and the sweeper. (I did that once to a guy who thought he could tell me how I should keep house. Never heard another word from him on the subject.) Glad you got to see some old friends and enjoy yourself today, Serenity.
My mouth is what's going to get me into trouble .. LOL .. it's a good thing I can remember send is not my friend when it comes to texting .. I don't trust myself in the LEAST to speak directly to him .. so I'm just trying to keep myself semi busy or doing something that is slightly mind numbing just for the simple fact .. it is just sooo much better that I don't speak.
Hugs :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
The weather here has been great and ive not been outside for days. I love the sound of a hog roast and with fellowship people. It truly is a compassion tank filler, is that what you called it? Im glad its all coming to a head for you, I will say a wee prayer that it goes your way.x
9 days .. working to stay on my side of the street .. yes .. I probably should have gone to the meeting yesterday .. it would be a good thing right now .. at the same time I think I need my inner Athena in dealing with the atty .. I'm being very clear about money as well as what do I want and what am I willing to give up. I'm going to have to give up the kids tuition .. if I get more money with support I can do that and I'm willing to do that.
The other thing I found out today that is that back log on the AMA healthcare Obama care for short .. I'm going to be lucky to have insurance in 7 months .. ugh .. that's just going to be the pits waiting for that to go through. Hopefully things won't be so backlogged by then. We'll see.
It's SOOO HARD to just SHUT UP .. and that's literally what I'm trying to do right now.
Hugs S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Got it. No text. No e-mail. No smoke signals. No talky-talky. No send buttons. Tall order, Serenity, but I believe you can do it! You can do it! 