Yesterday I had plans to view a room advertised in a shared house, it appealed so much to me in the advert because it was set in so many acres of farm land and it said they had a cat and two friendly dogs and the house was sociable and upbeat, I have not been in a position to go this far through finance before so I have been saving hard, and I was anxious about going, I was having conversations with myself all day, should I go? is my life really that bad? if he asks me why I want a room what do I say, as it got close to the time to go I thought ya know what? what I have got to lose, so just bite the bullet, I decided to go on my little motorbike, it was a rural location and country roads were mentioned in the description so I thought crikey this sounds posh they might not like bikers, some people don't, anyways I set off early I had a rough idea where I thought it might be, i found the lane I thought it may be off but after going up and down it a couple if times I thought narghhh it's not here perhaps this isn't meant to be, but then I decided to drive up by this gate house on what was a private road, there were a few private dwellings and a big country house at the top, I road around the whole place and was surprised noone was around to tell me off or ask waht I was doing, then I saw a jogger coming up the lane and asked if she knew where the walled garden was? she said yes just along there look.

So I found it and I was early I wrang the bell and three dogs with wagging tales pressed thier wet noses on the glass door panel and barked at me but no one answered, so I sat on a step admiring the tranquility of the place and a little scraggy black and white cat came and brushed against me purring, I love animals and it was lovely to have the campanionship and company of this little lady, it was sooooooooo comforting, not long after I heard the sound of engines coming up the drive and two cars pulled up and screached to halt on the gravel, the owner jumped out and said Hello I am Gordon you must be Katy, I said yes, he said we have lots of kids staying at the moment and I mean lots, I wanted to ask why where whos, lots got out of the cars, and later Gordon introduced his girlfriend and her eight children, wow, eight children I said three times eight children, Gordon said to the younger ones go and play on the trampoline and they did just like that, the three dogs were sniffing around me and the older children were making themselves drinks and settling down on sofas, It was all sooooooooooooooooo NORMAL!, Gordon showed me around, I asked if I lived there could my friends visit me he laughed and said of course it's not prison! 

I decided to try and not say too much about myself he did ask me what job I did, and actually i did tell him his children went to school with my daughter, and I think I had dropped her off there before for a party once in the village, I also asked if he would consider a short let to start with to see how we all got on and he said yes that would be fine.

So I did it, that in it's self was quite a thing for me, and it's showing me I have choices, so now I need to think, I have told my husband I feel so down and need to leave if only for a while,and his reply was good I don't blame you! 

So I am going to have a good think today and of course please feel welcome to give me your views on this please!

regards

Katy

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