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Welp this Last Month Sure has Had its Ups, Downs & turns that felt like my Insides would soon be on my Outside! Survival is def. Key in this Disease & In Life in General!
In the Last Month, My Aunt Had her Cancer Surgery, "doing Well" :) Now doing 6wks Radiation to make sure there are No More! My AGram Had a Cancer Scare as well, but After Surgury & Many Tests, she appears at 89 to be Cancer Free Praise God! My Son Got his Drivers Licenses & that brings its Own Worries, and Fears, but I Couldn't be Prouder of him! :) The A's in My Life Continue on a Regular Basis to leave me Scratching my Head, but Again! Praise God Al-Anon Taught me to Keep my Mouth SHUT! lol That is a Constant Work in Progress for me :) But I Love that My Relationships with these A's is Now Stronger then Ever Because I Can Now be the Listener...Not the Caretaker, Not the Enabler, Not thee Opinion Giver! "That was a Biggy for me!"
I never Realized how much I Suffer from Depression till I started working this Program 5+ yrs ago... I Thought I Just Hated Winter...but Little Did I Know, I Just Don't Like the fact there is No Sun to Warm me & Give me Comfort..."Yep ALL About Me". Sun has Always Given Me Energy, and Life :) This Disease/Recovery From it, has Gifted My Life beyond words, Yes Many Many Crazy Insane times, but I do see My Recovery Overcoming the bad Times with Great things, and Allowing me the Peace I Can now Find, usually in Just a Few Short Words... Like: "This Too Shall Pass" or "Keep It Simple" Or "How Important is it!" All Blessings...
Tough times are Never Going to Go Away... They Are Life & for Me it is How I Handle the Storm Now... Instead of How I Tried to Control the Storm Before! For Me it is Easy to Jump in and "Think" I'm Fixing Something, when in Reality had I Backed away from it Sooner, Someone else could have Learned & Earned Something New & it truly was Not My Storm to Control:) Admitting to Myself that I Can be Quite Over barring at times, in my desire to "attempt Control" is Saddening to me at times, because My Intention is Always to HELP, "Or So I have Told Myself"... Yet... When I Ask "Why" Im doing it? Its Tough to Decide if it is for Them? For Me? For the Greater Good Or Out of Pure Guilt followed Soon by Regret!
This whole Being Honest with myself thing, at times can be Quite Painful, but the Reward of Knowing that once i'm over that hurdle, even tho there will be More! I Learned Something About Me! Things that are No Longer Acceptable Behaviors for Me, Since NOW I am Aware... "3/A's" "Awareness, Acceptance, Action" I Always Fell Short on those... Or Just Tried to Ignore them so I didn't have to Change ME, or Make Changes! Funny How Immature My Thoughts where Just 5 short yrs ago while Whirling in my Disease! Not that I don't Still have My Moments, but at least when Workin my Program, I Make "Better" Choices... Amazing How Much 12 step work Can Change Your Life as Long as Your Willing to Do the Work to Make it Happen! No Ones Journey is the Same, So I'm Grateful I'm Know longer allowing Others to tell me/ or Convince me of what I Should or Shouldn't do! I'm Grateful Al-Anon Gave me back My OWN Mind, because Honestly, Its Been MIA For Many Many years... "Now Where Good Friends" :)
Thanks for Letting Me Share :D
Hoping the Sun Is Shining on Each of You! And You know that What ever comes your Way... We Can't, He Can, Might as well let him :o)
WELP!! Jozie so good to hear from you and feel the warmth of your spirit as you bring us through the joys and dificulities of your life. You are not merely surviving any longe. Being aware of new facts that hinder your growthand happiness is what this program is all about. We are noever a finished product and must keep growing, (like the trees) to thrive
Love that your son has his driver license He has grown in what sems like a blink.
He has grown in what sems like a blink.