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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Today, is a new day for me I have met my serenity and peace. I have been unhappy with how things have been going with my AH and our marrige and also with my job. This morning my office decided to let me go because I was very liked by my doctors and patient that she felt threatned so she let me go. I have to say that I was upset and angry but I used that energy to see that it was ment to be by HP for me to better myself and finish was I started in college.
My AH has been sober for three days, he showing me support as well as my parents. I pray that I hope another door opens with great potential to grow and not be at a place where all you have is a dead end. I feel at peace with myself and ready for the road to a better healthier life for me!
That has to be very hard losing your job. I sure hope you find something else you enjoy.
What makes it have so much control over you that you are happiest when your AH supposedly has not drank for 3 days? He is an A he will drink, he will drink again. Remember the roller coaster analogy we use all the time. Right now you are at the top....it hurts so much when we hit down again, which takes about a second.
When we learn to look at our own life, not at someone elses we do so much better. We go by how well we feel, what goals we have to work toward, and or the serenity we fell from our own path.
It's ok to glean one day at a time, not expecting anything more.
Have you read Getting Them Sober yet? volume one?
The thing about addicts is they may do other drugs too. Who knows what they are doing. We only can be sure of what we are doing.To depend on someone elses support is asking for trouble. Espeically from an A. Remember they are very sick people. I got where I didn't share much with the A as sooner or later he used it against me.
Glad you are here! debilyn
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