The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
As a rule, I want to send out the good news first. My husband doesn't have COPD according to his symptoms & probably doesn't have it at all. I am so relieved. Anyhow, my week started out kind of crazy but now I am into acceptance-mode. I spent way too much time in deep concern & not handling situations very well. I am trying not to say that I was worrying. I really wasn't riding that endless merry-go-round & rocking chair.
But, now I find out my nephew has lymphoma. I understand it is for sure a type of cancer. He is about 30 years old. His mom, who is my step-sister is sober in the program for over 20 years & I am totally not afraid she will slip or relapse. I am concerned because of the past 2 1/2 years she has lost all three of her parents in one year & does need to process everything before she becomes very depressed. One good thing happened to her before all the deaths in our family; she had the dog that won the ugly dog contest a few years back. Not only did the dog become an instant celebrity but she didn't do too bad herself. Some ups & some downs. Unfortunately, Yoda died awhile back. She deals a lot w/ dog grooming as she has her own business. Anyway, I hope I am not breaking her anonymity. I just feel so compelled to share what she is going through as I care for her very deeply. When our dad died, she was the one who called & sent cards & let me know that she loves me. We have been family since I was 9 & she was almost 10. We used to get in trouble together even though I thought I wasn't getting into trouble just her. It is funny the things you remember when you are grown up. I was there right beside her as her sidekick. The only difference between her & me is that I didn't do the drugs.
So, I feel very open & candid today. I hope that I never say too much or step on anyone's toes. I am very sensitive to everyone's needs. I guess if any of you have something to say about how I am, say it. I am not afraid of criticism. I am a grown woman who knows how to handle situations that used to baffle me.
You are all a part of my journey. I believe that it is a journey towards wellness. Some of us still carry the disease w/ us that sometimes runs rampant. I know for me that the only way I can combat this disease is if I don't let it consume me. Believe me, I have a lot of experience. I just hope that my experience can benefit others. That is my goal.
I'm sorry Kathleen about your nephew. I pray with medical breakthroughs with many types of cancers he will go into remission. It's way to young for anyone to have to go through cancer. I know you will pray for him and his HP will take the right course for him. I also know you will pray for you step-sister that she will able to be strong for her son.
It's nice your husband does not have COPD. But still know there is help for anything and God will help.
You are moving forward every single day and taking care of you. That is the best thing you can do so you will live life on life's terms.
(((( hugs ))))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
