Am I Crazy? - Al-Anon Family Group

Cathyinaz · ~*Service Worker*~

Am I Crazy?

Melly1248 · ~*Service Worker*~

Well you're no crazier than I am

I get like this. Especially about the house. I had let it go and it was dreadful and I was completely at the point of wanting to just build a raft and take my chances on the open sea. Anything was better than coming home and cleaning up the mess. Total panic. And then I had to clean, for a property inspection, and now the house is lovely and I'm thinking, as always "wow, it's so nice and I feel so calm in a clean house, THIS time I'll just keep it clean and feel like this every day". But I think that every time lol. Completely crazy. But glad to learn that I'm not alone with it

Hugz.

Forgiveness82 · Member

I totally understand. I had an anxiety attack doing the dishes this morning.

I'm promising myself to just tackle my dishes and book shelf.

Sending you love and light!

PP · ~*Service Worker*~

When I begin to feel unglued, I do what I can to slow me down. Sometimes that means sitting quietly and listening to me breathing. I then usually pull out some al anon reading to get me into my slogans/recovery. You aren't crazy aww

-- Edited by PP on Friday 14th of March 2014 10:38:54 AM

SerenityRUS · ~*Service Worker*~

Umm .. so NOT crazy after dealing with crazy for so long it's really a hard adjustment that things that happen aren't catastrophic and that I have the opportunity to take a breath before making a decision. I was thinking about everything you have been through over the last few weeks and honestly .. your son and his showing up, calling, can't make it all the way home or to your house drunk. I mean seriously .. going from that to nothing and then having to make basic decisions who wouldn't have a moment of panic that is this all? My "crazy" behavior is usually because I was so on point to react to the latest crisis that even the little stuff feels HUGE .. and not to minimize having to find a new Dr or get a tire changed those are big things in a small world. It's not the heightened OMGOSH this is someone else's (notice focus not on me) crisis these are MINE to deal with .. don't know if that makes sense .. I can understand where you are coming from especially as I have untangled from my STBAX's garbage that is his to deal with.

Hugs S :)

Breakingfree · ~*Service Worker*~

I can so relate even in my life this week, life just catches up to us sometimes and well I am going to look into counseling again too. I have just been overwhelmed and almost feeling paralyzed to get my normal tasks done lately, like paying bills, studying, dishes, getting to the grocery store. I feel like I need a break or vacation, but I know that I need to keep plugging along for right now and will have time in the Summer to relax. So I am finding little moments to relax and bring myself back to a calm serene place before diving back into my normal busy life. Some things even seem silly so I laugh and ask God to just take it off of me and I can feel the weight lift off of me knowing He is there and it will be okay! Sending you love and support on your journey!

PP · ~*Service Worker*~

What I neglected to say in my previous post, is that I am right there with you a lot of the time and I am not crazy (at least no in my opinion, tee hee). I might be in a crazy place, but oh well. I know what to do if I want to slow the roll smile smile smile

pinkchip · ~*Service Worker*~

Cathy, all that anxious energy spent on your son will find it's way into your life in other ways if you don't actively work your program. Not sure if this is the case, but for me....it often is. What you are describing also sounds like a generalized anxiety disorder maybe. I know that's been an issue of yours. It is for me too. Therapy helps me as well as meds (preferably nonaddictive ones).

AngelicH57 · Senior Member

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el-cee · ~*Service Worker*~

Everyone seems to be asking that question lately. I think were all a bit crazy. It could be a sign that you need to dig in to your program. Thats what it means when I get like this. You handled it all and found the solution so your not that crazy.x

Rose50 · Senior Member

If you're crazy, then so am I. There are times when I put things off that need to get done and I am not a procrastinator. I think it's living with the crazy making disease. Anxiety seems to be part of the package. Work that program!

(((hugs)))

Jerry F · ~*Service Worker*~

When I become aware of it that is when I do something (program) about it. Cathy FEAR is a big automatic habit for me...when I learned that I knew it wasn't just going to disappear because I wanted it to or expected it to. I knew I was going to have to do some, mind, body, spirit and emotions work on it. The mind part was getting my thinking honest...looking at the picture in the right perspective, the body part was relaxation mode...don't tighten up, the spirit part was getting my intentions and motivations in positive order and the emotions part was choosing the opposite emotion of fear for me...love...unconditional acceptance of me, them, it, they, that, this etc. etc. If I didn't do as I was taught I spent(d) who knows how much time in insanitiville and I just don't like that at all. For me I learned that this is a "do" program...it is now the way I live...I don't get out of the program...I'm in for 24/1...24/7 and for what ever time I have left on this big round island...lol. Where ever I am...that's where I'm at and however I am for that I am responsible. So are you crazy or maybe just a bit tetched? I think much less than tetched cause you worked it out nicely. Thanks for the demo....(((((Hugs))))) smile

I jest love demos...practice, practice, practice...

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