The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Is it strange to feel puzzled that someone thinks I'm funny, intelligent and beautiful? The person I am when not in the grips of the disease. The person I have been missing without realizing she was gone. I have had glimpses of her a little more and more each day that I am able to focus on recovery. There were times when people would say kind things but I dismissed it so easily. I heard the words but didn't feel it. I am starting to feel it and it feels so good! lol
A whole hearted thank you to those of you who have given your E/S/H....it helps to break the isolation caused by living with a very terrible baffling disease. At times I felt like crumbling and finding a rock to hide under and am so grateful to come here and read all that others bring here...love, kindness, compassion, and an understanding like no other.
I also lost appreciation of all my good qualities as I struggled alone with the disease of alcoholism. In fact when my sponsor suggested an asset list I could not think of one. She too pointed out I was understanding and compassionate and I said:"That is one of my defects" and I believed it. That is how seriously my mental health had been affected
I am glad you are beginning to see your assets and appreciate them. Good work
I had lost myself for 8-9 years. Looking back now, it's so sad and ridiculous, to let someone else's pain, misery, and illness, cause me to become full of pain, misery, and become ill. Codependency is alive and well and I must be diligent to not let it take me over again and again. Alanon is my life-preserver, Lyne
