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HI I'm home and thinking today...... maybe thinking too much LOL
I'm not the sharpest knife in the drawer but in my simple world I do my hardest to try and change me.
When I first came to Al-anon I thought I had to be so strong that nothing would faze me after a while. Boy was I wrong.
I don't care who you are but all of us worry and fear but it comes down to how we get a handle on it and change it.
For me....yeah I worry, I fear and cry but what I don't do anymore is become a pile of goo in bed for 2 days. I don't have the anxiety that would take over my thoughts completely. I don't have the worry that would have me crying at work all day. When worry starts I contact people, I post, I read, I go to meetings and make sure I'm around people that can help me overcome it before it gets worse.
I don't have the gift of articulate writings so I hope this doesn't sound stupid. I just write. I also know most know this but I still just wanted to write it for me.
Take care of you....it works if you work it and your worth it.
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Nothing you write sounds stupid to me - EVER! You are honest, sincere, vulnerable. We could all go into a corner and curl up in a ball and die. It isn't like we are dealing with a few unpleasantries here and there and picking at our boo-boos. This disease is a killer. We are all dealing with major life issues and you are doing it well. Thanks for your program example and for NOT being a sharp knife. They only cut. You encounter and encourage. You are a gift.
cathyinaz, you have inspired me a lot and helped me since I just join , we all struggle to live with the A's in our lives or learning to cope a we go, Thank you for your kind words and hugs when I needed them... let's put them sharp knives away.. :)
Thank you for another good share, Cathy. I don't see the negativity that you've expressed, but I know when I feel negative, I'm offered the suggestion of a daily asset list. Please be good to you.
I love your posts for their humility and strength - two things that, in my experience, combine to create wonderful people.
For ages I thought that I had to be strong - no tears, in fact no reactions at all. Prone like a doormat! I think that it is a really special skill to be able to continue to feel through all the heartache and rise above the dramatics and keep feeling. I have no end of admiration for you and the grace you bring us all.
PS I've cut out carbs for three weeks - no bread, pasta and potatoes but enjoying eating lots and lots of lovely fruit, veg and salad and protein. I've been doing it just because it is healthy but I've lost a nice amount of weight as well which is a bonus! (Not easy avoiding pasta here in Italy but I imagine there is plenty of beefy protein down your way)
