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Jerry F


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A few days prior to 2/8/1979 I was again planning a suicide.  I had attempted it years before when married to an addict and then If HP don't want it I won't ever get to it.  I decided to call help in emotional troubles and the suicide prevention center and there was no one there to help; either they were all busy or they were at lunch.  The next thing that happened was that I found the index finger of my right hand pointing to the hotline number for Al-Anon in the white pages of the local telephone book in Central Valley California and after I dialed found a "live" voice to speak with.  I was alone at the time and afraid that my alcoholic/addict would come home and find me speaking about a "problem" I couldn't solve which had much to do with her drinking and using.  She did come home and jiggled the door knob to the front door which I had locked against her chance return and I told the voice on the other side of the phone, "I have to hang up she just came home" which was responded to with "Do not hang up this phone...your very life could depend on it".  I had not mentioned suicide and still the angel knew and I found out how she knew from the rest of the fellowship as I entered the program that first Monday night into the room that would later become my home group for a long time.   

All I have is today...right now.  The success I have today is a consequence of duplicating what I have learned everyday from the fellowship up until yesterday.  My chances are good and better that I will never have to be victim to the disease of alcoholism and drug addiction and other insane methods of living if I continue to keep duplicating.  I am amazed to still be alive today.  Between my HP and myself we agree that I actually am living on borrowed time and that during this borrowed time I am to be of maximum use to my HP.  I start my day faithfully with the conversation "Place me where you want me...tell me what to do" and I hold my 24/7 meditation inside, around and infront me, "God is".   

I'm good and I'm grateful to everyone in the program, MIP and where ever else whom my HP has profoundly used to keep me in peace of mind and serenity.  Truely I know what a Miracle In Progress is cause I can look in the mirror and just laugh and shake my head with glee.

Aloha No...Love to this family who often helps me walk without touching the ground.   Mahalo  (((((((hugs))))))) smile



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Jerry, Im so glad you spoke to that angel, because you have gone on to become an angel to people here, including me. I like your program, the way you tell it, its very clear to me and I get what you mean. Unfortunately, I am still a victim of alcoholism that seems to be progressing and living right here in my home, Im feeling it. The good news is I know what I need to do, the bad news, not quite having the courage. Im so grateful you are here Jerry.x

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((((Jerry))))..... I'm so thankful you're here. Keep coming back:))

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smile HUGS Jer!!!!!

 



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Jill


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I'm so thankful to you and to the live voice 35 years ago. This is so good to read.

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(((Jerry)))
Thank you for sharing this as many of us can relate to dark despair that can come with exposure to the disease. I'm so grateful that you are here, have love- have life, have your HP, have your MIP family and more!

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Glad your HP had another plan for you 35 years ago yesterday ((Jerry))



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Jerry you are an incredible person. Your posts are inspirational and you say what you think. I agree with MorningGlory - HP had another plan for you.

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Jerry thank you for being here because you are a wonderful person with such wisdom that has helped me so much by reading your posts.
Truly your HP has great plans for you.
Hope

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Keep coming back - for you, and for the rest of us!

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(((((((hugs)))))))) Jerry. We love you.


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35 years ago you met an angel in Al Anon 2 years ago I met an angel in Al Anon, one of them was you, others were other members of this family. i couldn't thank you enough for what your experience and words meant to me at that time, when I was lost and in full ignorance of the disease and its effects. You lead me on a path that I didn't even know existed, and new doors opened for me. Sure, i need to walk the path with my own energy and strength, but to listen to old-timers can be the only source of hope there is in these moments of confusion and fear. Thanks for giving the example of 'it works if you work it'. You are an inspiration.
lots of love and happy anniversary.

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(((((Jerry))))

Congratulations and thank you for 35 years!

And as I was told at my first meeting almost 10 years ago, "Keep coming back baby, we need you"  smile

 

David



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Miracles do happen and your one of them. Thank you for being who you are and loving us no matter what.

(((( hugs ))))


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So glad you didn't hang up, and so thankful you're here.  With best wishes, Diva



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(((((Jerry)))) I'm humbled, and I adore you.

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((( Jerry, I love your story .. I'm glad you got back on the phone too. lol ))) You have a beautiful, spiritual recovery and have been an inspiration .. I'm sure it's safe to say We appreciate all the hard work, willingness, and experience you share in order to bring us hope, strength, courage, & wisdom !! Thanks for being here ..

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