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Well, i don't talk about my work b/c it is not alanon, but there is a power struggle going on at my biggest job and the dad who hired me is slowing down...i got stuck w/his middle son who does not care for me...His beef against me is that I do not go to church.....I can't do anything right by him...Had a long talk w/the dad on Saturday and dad is on my side and he thinks my job is "safe" b/cuz dad is still an officer there, equal and so things "should" be ok...But I must be prepared for the worst and I am not...I cannot control things outside of me (creating the need on the part of someone else for my services)
Also starting a new/old client whom i left and now wednesday i begin w/him....I need this to work out...I need this to be "ok" this time....
I am just gonna go one day at a time....
feeling aprehensive...so my action???? call sponsor.....and i am working my worksheets on steps 1,2,3....
I know this isn't alanon and don't expect any esh so going to call sponsor and we will work on keeping me in the present and working on the steps.....
Today I am needy...Today, I need some TLC...Today I will take care of this ear and take care of keeping my fears at bay....since Friday when son jumped on me again over something really stupid, I have been having bad dreams about not being able to take care of me.....sooo sick of this.....I need my sponsor and might even call a recovery mate, too....she is a stepaholic and we do the steps really well together....
I might, earache and all, go to club just to work off my nerves...physical and mental work is good for me...i can't get all "tight" and stressed out so bad if i tire me out w/exercise......
later gaters
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Sounds like you know what you need and will take action because you are a self love warrior...just wanted to let you know I read and I listened. (((hugs)))
I hope your ear gets better soon, that's a horrible pain and its hard to stay on track with your thinking when your in pain. Go to a doctor if it continues. I can't believe a person would judge you because you don't go to church, if only he knew what a spiritual person you are, its not his business though, the irony is he will probably think he is closer to God even with all his judgement of others. Church doesnt cure small mindedness.x
I hope your ear gets better soon, that's a horrible pain and its hard to stay on track with your thinking when your in pain. Go to a doctor if it continues. I can't believe a person would judge you because you don't go to church, if only he knew what a spiritual person you are, its not his business though, the irony is he will probably think he is closer to God even with all his judgement of others. Church doesnt cure small mindedness.x
WOW....((((((((((((el-cee))))))))))))) WHAT an uplifting thing to say to me....Thank you...and yea, pain can throw off the thinking....I love that "Church doesnt cure small mindedness.x) sooo true!!!! Thank you el-cee.........
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
Sounds like you know what you need and will take action because you are a self love warrior...just wanted to let you know I read and I listened. (((hugs)))
I wasn't as frisky today, only ran a mile and then did about 30 ab curls, biceps, triceps, maybe 35 each, but no more......anyway, i was there about an hour., so that was ok...gonna go to bed early tonight...got a vid from you tube about the Siberian Transcontinental Railroad that I'll watch, curled up under my electric blanket......WHAT a project that was...OMG, what little I know about Russia and its Breadth and differing terraines, that was a real test of endurance for the builders...I think Russia has about 8 time zones?? I know it is wider than US and CA put together...fascinating history and country...we think we are freezing??? Siberian winters are like minus 40...YIKES
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It's minus 40 here today and tomorrow :( Wind chill of minus 60. I guess it's the coldest in 18 yrs. I remember that last time well. Our water pipes froze and Mum flipped out with good reason. Seems ironic how much I hate winter and the cold - yet can't seem to move away with my parents living... just can't do it to them. I guess that is a coda aspect of me I'm just not willing to give up. I would want my children happy - no matter what, but sheesh - them moving away - I'd be secretly so so sad. Good thing it's a long way off!
