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So I was listening to a CD my mom had in her car, driving home from Christmas with my dad, who is a recovering A. This was the first good christmas I ever remember with my dad, and I was thankful on my travels.
If you have read any of my posts, I haven't spoken about my dad before, but only of my ABF. At any rate, it's beside the point.
The song was a Jewel medley christmas song, and it included lyrics from Bette Midler's From a Distance, Go Tell it on the Mountain, and Jewel's orginal song Life Uncommon. They really really hit home. The whole medley is beautiful, but hearing the message of the song, I think it can lend to all of our situations. No longer lend your strength to things you need to free yourself from. That doesn't mean our A's, it means everything else. It means the worry of the future, it means freeing yourself from the chains of guilt, it means from the cycles we perpetuate, from doubt that things can improve...it means so much in a few little phrases.
lend your voices only to sounds of freedom no longer lend your strength to that which you wish to be free from fill your lives with love and bravery and we shall lead a life uncommon
And that God is watching us from a distance. I want you to know that when I heard those lines, I had an epiphany. Let me tell you, it lit me up like a Christmas tree...God watches over us from a distance folks, and he does NOT interfere with our free will. He does not force his will upon us. He does not judge....and it hit me that maybe thats what it meant to try to live like Him, to be Godlike, to be made in that image...and as a woman learning what it means to detach with love from my A, whew....powerful. God would not pour out alcohol bottles, stamp his feet, yell, curse, cry, make a man feel more guilt, give grief or try to fix someone's issues, or force someone do to things they haven't chosen for themself. God would watch from a distance, in perfect love. This all coming from me, who up until a few years back had very little faith in HP. Miracles have happened in my own soul. Im so grateful. Im grateful for even the negative things, that have brought me strength. So much love to all of you!
This is lovely and I always believed it to be true Then when I found alanon and picked up the tools I found the way to no longer lend my mind and strength to what I needed to be free of. Thank God for alanon
