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But I'll be glad when the holidays are over and things are back to normal.I haven't been on in a long time and guess I just need to vent.My husband the alcoholic is off work for the holidays.Every day he's off work he drinks more.I started playing this little game where I count the beer in the fridge at night after he's asleep then recount it in the morning.So far each day he's been off (since Saturday) there have been two missing by 8:20 AM. That's not to mention the stash he keeps in his barn or car.He takes a little ride with the dog every morning and that's when he's downing those two beers.I wish he'd get caught by the cops.I have reported him but they said they can't do anything unless he has a reason to be pulled over and they can tell or see that he's been drinking.When I called I asked them to not hurt my dog if they do pull him over.LOL !! Today he went to his dads already.To the very person who taught him how to drink.They'll get hammered together so I know it will be the typical night tonight.Him stumbling around.Talking stupid,just hard to deal with and me wishing he'd fall asleep on the couch.OH....these aren't the little cans of beer he drinks.These are the one pint size.The other day I went shopping with our son.He's 28. I got my husband a picture of his favorite sports team.I told my son to pick the one he liked best because he'd end up with it anyway.I've heard terrible stories of alcohlics who's colons rupture and the person bleeds to death before help arrives.I'm just wondering when,where and if this will happen to my husband.I'm not wishing it to happen but I'm preparing myself for the worst.
I hope everyone has a good holiday and can find peace somewhere along the line.
The Holidays are a difficult time for all who live with the disease of alcoholism.
I have found that I can stall have a Happy Holiday Season if I increase my meetings, talk to program people, keep the focus on myself and remember the readings in our Daily Reader.
The C2C today has a quote from Ralph Waldo Emerson "Nothing can bring you peace but yourself" I would like to add and HP
May I always choose to see and appreciate the richness of my life.
Oh NO! Now I feel terrible (and a little silly) about taking personally the response you left me tonight. I can see why you're hurting and I'm so sorry, el-cee!
Living with an active alcoholic must be a nightmare and I can only imagine the suffering you are in or what could be going on at your house right now.
Every time I think my situation's the worst I see its really quite minimal in comparison to what others are going through. Makes me feel quite ungrateful for all the blessings I have and a little selfish which is typical of us alcoholics :)
yes I have found some peace now tonight and I hope the very same for you, dear el-cee.
don't give up hope, even in the face if what looks hopeless.
