The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I pray. I want to show my gratitude for all that you have given me. I am grateful for all the wonderful things and wonderful experiences. Today, I am sitting on my couch, watching football, enjoying some ice cream. nice and peaceful. Not every minute of my day has to be occupied and 'productive'. I thank you for this time for myself.
Every time I have asked you for help, you have answered. I thank you. I ask that you remember that I am only one man. Sometimes, it feels like I am doing the work of 2, maybe 3. That's how it's been most of my life with an alcoholic father and an absent mother.
I know I should not be so hard on myself and I am doing extremely well considering. However, for me to accomplish all that you have in store for me I cannot do it on my own. I need you and and I need you to bring people in my life that can help.
As mentioned, you have answered the call before. With my support group, with my friends, you have allowed to focus on the relationships that enable me to grow. but I am tired of being tired. This is not an ultimatum as I know first-hand you don't seem to respond to kindly to those, but a reminder. A reminder that I cannot do all of this by myself.
You've built me like all your other children, with the same basic needs, wants and restrictions.
I pray.
Thought I would share this in case anyone else needed to hear it.
Thank you Jim for that....I do need it right now. I have a small crisis but a crisis just the same. I need to come closer to my HP AND my support group which I have not done. I let my A control me still too much. I don't do the work needed and that is my fault. It won't change until I change. I won't be hard on myself but I also won't give myself a break because I did it all by myself...me..I.
Your telling me what I need to do to become whole.....my prayers are with you
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
