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Well it's going on day 3 that I have not spoken to my son. Yes it hurts because even through the times he was using we were still close or I maybe have been just enabling him and comforting him an nourishing him.. I miss him and will always love him. Right now I am to fragile to even call him where he is staying at. He no longer has his phone he says he lost it, but intuitions tell me different. I saw his car yesterday at my next door neighbors house.. What is hurtful is I'm depressed missing my son and now I have this kind of relationship with my son. I am glad to be going to a face to face meeting tonight. And thank you all for being here for me.
I was just like that at the beginning. Going 3 days without a word would put me in a tail spin. But working my program, praying and reading I find I don't need to know or be with my son. I can live with the fact he is going to do what he wants no matter what I DO for him or to him.
You are OK and you can let him take care of himself. I can bet you he doesn't want to be around you because of his quilt and disappointing his mom. So maybe just stepping back for a few days with help you both right now.
Remember you are making yourself crazy and you can stop it if you want. Don't think your son can do it for you because he can't right now.
Love and prayers for you my dear...
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
