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My biggest fear as a Mother has just came true and believe it or not I am coping and coping quite well. My program has came to life for me in a different way entirely. My head has been filled with the 3c's, I have constantly said 'I am powerless' and Im here to tell you guys what I have been unable to say out loud really because I know I shouldn't isolate myself as that is the start of the slippery slope towards depression and being a victim. My son was stabbed by his friend at the weekend, hes okay but has spent the last few days in hospital. His friend was attacking someone and my son pushed his friend away and he was then stabbed. He had an operation on his arm. He got out last night and he is staying with me for the next couple of weeks.
What happens next I dont know and to be honest I dont know if he will last very long at mine because if he drinks then I may have to defend my boundary and not let him in again. Im feeling vulnerable but not overwhelmed. Im still trying to keep the focus on me. I have dealt with this crisis amazingly well, this program has kept me from sinking into self pity and hopelessness. It is a miracle. When I think of how I would have been without this program, Im so relieved that I have it.
Anyway, I am dealing with one day at a time and making decisions that are good for me, I think, and if I continue to do make decisions that are good for me then I am going to be okay. Thanks for listening.x
Hearing a share such as yours is what kept me going to meetings. This is filled with courage and an example of doing the next best thing, keeping your collaboration with your HP at the helm. Prayers, elcee for you and your beloved son.
when it gets tough I take more al anon medicine get to as many meetings as posiible. Its amazing how i go into the meeting feeling sad negative and come out happy and at peace. If you are an al anon member you are never ever alone but we have to have the courage to reach out. At the worst times I found it easier to reach out be honest on here. But I still went to my meetings nothing like a real HUG.
Hp has you keep coming back it works if you work it
Praying for you and your son and being grateful it wasn't worse. I know HP will guide you as you make your decisions one day at a time. Sending lots of positive thoughts and encouragement to you and to your family.
I'm so sorry this is happening to you but your doing well with the crisis at hand. Just stick close to your program and we will all be praying for you and your son.
Please God help elcee's son to get better soon and keep him close..
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El cee, I am so sorry to read your news, but so fully agree that program tools help us to deal with the crises and the challenges. Sending you live and prayers, for u and your son.
oh yea, program is my main higher power....then comes my HP (higher parent) within me.....ohhh yea, i would be in a basket if it weren't for program........i am studying the 12 steps of reparenting myself.....GREAT book....ea. week, a new step, perhaps 2 on step 4, but essentially i am doing ea. step for about a week....just started and oh man this is good
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
