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had a bit of a slip over past couple of weeks and wanted to share my growth to express how this slip was part of my journey.
I have been getting resntful towards mt sober ABF because he is working hard and only getting to 1 meeting a week. He is talking to his AA friends inbetween and doing his readings. He is acourier so this time of year is hectic for about 6 weeks. I have completed the steps and I am thin king of doing them again with a sponsor.
Anyways I have been getting impactient with MY ABF and his recovery journey lots of my shortcomings being highlighted.
We shared on top table together at an open AA meeting and next day I felt horrible still feeling resentful. So I rang a member who is married to a sober A. Her partner has been sober 2 years mind 15 months this time.
Well throught talking to her I could see how my focus had slipped from my reovery TO HIS.
I also gained insight into how impatient I was being DAM!!
you see when I am working a good programme I see a triangle my relationship with HP is my main focus,
then my relationship with myself and my recovery, then my relationships with others.
When I get ill my triangle turns upside down and i become diconnected from hp and obses and focus on others. OH well my traingle is correct way up today and another lesson learnt.
Thanks for your honesty and for living in the solution.
I was reminded that just like the alcoholic , my disease of attitudes is arrested but never cured. I certainly do need to keep coming back because this is a one day at a time program
I like that perspective and I like the work and awarenesses. Called someone else in program and let them examine your process...how humbling and you listened how dedicated and loyal to your own recovery. This is the stuff that saved my butt not to mention that it came from a woman again. Mahalo Tracy. ((((hugs))))
If only we had this GIANT buzzer that buzzed obnoxiously when ever we acted wrong!!!lol Wouldnt that be easier. Instead we have our beady little brains that have been programmed for so many years in a different way. Patience for yourself would be good too. And maybe you can go to the music store and buy a triangle and chime it every once in a while as a reminder. In support OG
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