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Today is Monday I do know that. My Ahs found a job with a huge cut in pay and has to commute close to 2 hours to work. I'm very depressed lost my Sponser due to her own trouble at home, I manage to lose 3 more friends well they really weren't friends because they all had strings attached to them. I know how to sort the people out now ,I just don't . There's been some changes done here at the home I call floating.. The house is alway moving in different direction no stability yet no anker to. My children are accepting me and my husband way of living .there no more fighting we knock on doors before just entering . I live upstairs where I'm happy and content my husband finally got use to it and calls me his girlfriend his one night stand lol . We still eat as a family talk but we keep it in that moment . I know this is not a way that married couple should do or have the children confused by the living arrangements but there's peace . We are still married just don't sleep in the same room . My husband started a job maybe 3 weeks ago but who keeps tract of things I don't. Saturday night he gets a call from his new job telling him don't come into work your suspended! My husband said what on what grounds and the company said is old job called and slander him . Today he was let go .thanksgiven week xmass next month my depression has peaked I have no energy to get out of bed I have not hit a meeting in a while and I was very unsure weather to post this update. I stopped caring for myself and no one wants to help me get a head start, I managed to drive ppl away with my negative behavior and I am sorry that my appearance shows all. But I'm still alive he still not drinking the kids are better. Hope in time this house that floats will drop anker soon . We accepted that crap happens we look on it as another lesson learn and never to repeat again . The courage to accept change since nothing is perfect, you live on life's terms like it or not so give it to god to take we can't do anything about it anymore time to move on. The wisdom to know you can accept your life the way it has come to be not a choice at this time but what we have to work with it. Alcohol took a lot away from us and left us with little pieces of our family behind but we are working together to put the puzzle in place and start over .
I am so sorry to read of the pain and loss that have occurred within your family. I too have experienced years where it all had to get worse before it got better.
Acceptance of Life on life's terms one day at a time , trusting that HP has a plan does work. It is apparent that you are determined to hold strong . I am concerned that you have stopped taking such good care of yourself. Meetings are important . Making sure we break the isolation, eat, rest are all important tools to maintain our sanity during times of stress.
I am glad you posted. Prayers and positive thoughts on the way
Prayers wisdom....be the Wisdom you have claimed for yourself and keep the focus on you and what you KNOW to be best for you. Drag yourself to many meetings, they are essential for your well being.
