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So as I had shared my son relapsed one week ago today.. Well since he has no longer relapsed I can honestly say for him he just never recovered. He is in such denial. Where did all the stress and worrying and fear send me to !!?? Yes the mental hospital on Wednesday all caused by those factors because I have been so addicted to my son and his addiction thinking I can save him. Well I am not god and I can't help some one that does not want help. I love him dearly and will forever be there for him but his addiction had took me to a level I have never been before. I'm at my in laws and gave my son his eviction notice so I can be on the road to recovery. I still need help and need to really be plugged in to my recovery!!
Great to hear from you Gaby, your awareness is admirable, honestly, I am getting there but i still make the bumpy journey nicer for him. I need to let go and let God. Thanks for sharing.x
I know how hard this will be for you but it's the best thing you can do for you and him. He has to learn to live life on lives terms.
I have not had any contact with my son and it hurts some days. The not knowing what is happening or what will happen is heartbreaking but I will get through it. I'm doing a strong program right now and keep my thoughts and hurts at bay.
I think not talking or no contact is cruel sometimes but what else it there to do now. He won't change so my being there will only give him hope I will help him.
We both need to take care of us now no matter what.....it's the only way.
(((( hugs ))))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Gaby
Your courage amazes me and I know, as a mom, how hard this must be. I am slowly beginning to see that no one else in your life should be able to take away your peace and sanity. If they do, then it is time to see it for what it is and disengage. It's wonderful that you have some support in this. I truly hope that you find some peace within yourself and the strength to let him follow his own path. We just have to stop taking responsibility for other people's bad choices in life.
So sorry for what you're going through and I understand. No word from my son in 5 weeks now. I miss him and yet I feel a sense of peace. We cannot help them - sad to say. God knows we all have tried and if love could cure them we wouldn't need this forum.
