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So Much Whirling Going on Around me Recently, that sometimes its Hard to Keep my Head up, but Thanks Goodness, I Don't have to be In Charge & HP Can Be!
I Recently Found out that My Dearest of Aunts Has Cancer :( I have Already Lost So Many to this Disease its Heartbreaking to think she could be the Next... We Lost My Uncle (her Husband) to Cancer about Several Short years ago and it was a Terrible thing to witness first hand! And My MIL Just Recently... How I Miss them So ....
I Do My Best to Stay on the Possitive side of things, and when it is something like this I Do My Best to Realize that no matter how I Feel about it! I Have to Put my Faith in God/HP to know its Only in their Hands... "Al-Anon Gave me that" When i Think about "Who" I was before I Came to Al-Anon it almost Hurts to Look back! I was a Wrecking Ball of Emotions, I Worried about Everything, and 99% of time thee very things that gave me Alcers... Had Nothing to do with things "I" Personally could Change!
Its Amazing what the "Serenity Prayer" has Done for my Recovery... I can Say it sometimes 100 times a day, and Each time "HEAR" it differantly... I Heard a Version of it Once that I Liked and will Share... It Says: "God, Give me Grace to Accept with Sernity the Things That Cannot be Changed, Courage to Change the THings which Should be Changed, and the Wisdom to Distinguish the one from the Other!" I think for Me At times I Need that "Grace" I need to Accept that even tho All things are Not Acceptable, I Still want to Carry Myself with Grace and a True Heart! Being Angry at things I can not Change, Only Ruins My Sanity, it doesn't Solve Anything and Ends up hurting Me & Others in the Long Run!
I LOVE my F2F Meetings, and tho Our Small town is Differant then those of you that have the HUGE Meetings Ours is Quite Intimate at times Meaning that We All End up more like Family! All Our Meetings are usually No More then 20 peeps and I'm Grateful at times for that, because it gives everyone a Chance to Hear & Share... The People I have Met & the Newcomers I Continue to meet, have Just Changed Everything in my Life! I have Learned from the Weakest, and at times Struggle & Admire the Couragous... My Relationships with "Others" has Taking on New LIght Thanks to the Love & Support of Al-Anon... I Can now Hold my Head High and Know that even tho I Love & Care for Someone, I Can Not Fix them and it is Not My Job to Do SO! I have Learned Boundry's that Maybe Only I am Aware of, but they have Kept me Safe... I've Learned that Tho I Love the Person, I Do Not have to Like Or Tolerate their Behavior, because I have the Right to "Vote with my Feet" and Leave the Room when I'm Unsure, or Insecure of My Surroundings... And its OK for me to Do so Because I'm Worth my Own Sanity and Well Being...
So Tho My Heart is Torn, and Tho I Wish at times I had All the Answers, I'm Grateful today that I Do Not! I'm Grateful that this Program has proven to me Time & Time again that Life is about "Choices, Chances, & Change" and they are All up to me to Fulfill My Own Happiness... I can't Wear Someone elses "Junk or Ick" and Find My Inner Peace, I have to stand Vigilant in my Recovery so as Not to Continue Falling Backwards in stead of Moving Forward... Do I Stumble?? Many times over, but Al-Anon has showed me how to Recover with Grace, and still Know that I am Human, and in Being Human, I Can't be Perfect... What a Blessing to have such an Amazing Place to Land...
So Thank You ALL For Being Here... & Keep Coming Back... You are SO Very Worth It
so sorry to hear about your auntie......i remember when your uncle passed......I know its been tough on you a lot since I have known you and your attitude towards it is nothing short of amazing
you are an inspiration to the young ones...the Newbies and even us "been around for a while" folks
I have never seen you be negative...on the board...off the board....U just keep on keepin on....
I am sending you comfort prayers for this special lady who is ill and obviously means so much to you.....
I love your take on the Serenity Prayer....
Take care, my good lil friend.....Your auntie is very very blessed to have you....I am blessed to be friends with you......
love and hugs
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
So very sorry to read of your Aunt's illness. I agree, the program and the serenity prayer are powerful tools that have also provided me awesome inspiration to enable us to face life on life's term. I heard such acceptance in your post and knowledge that although life does not always offer us a "Rose Garden" we can face it with the help of Higher Power and the support of others who truly understand.
Prayers and positive energy for you and your family
Prayers for your aunt, you and those that love her. You are a great example that we can hold sorrow and joy in the same container simultaneously...both/and; not either/or
