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I read that post....I could see my pain all over the place.....
I edited it so as to be more "generic" re: the HP thingy....i was NOT doing a proseletize job on anyone on the original....I was just crying out.....those of you who replied to my apology to the board post, I sooo appreciate you, and the pm's i got were really so precious to me
I was pain with a capital "P" when i first did that post......I will NOT beat me up over it.......I am treating me gently as i deserve...
the negative energy seems to be lifting some....
i'll tell ya, since I came back, this "come back" has been hard b/c of my new and more determined approach to , yes, deal with me, and my defects, but also to reconcile with my HP.
of course old negative energies are going to fight me bc i am wanting change
but i am less afraid........its like driving down the road in your car and you have to make a right turn and its REAL sharp turn....so you slow down....turn the wheel right, but its not enough....so i had to back up....make the turn again and maybe that isn't quite enough...so I back up AGAIN and i make the right turn and THIS time, my efforts pay off bc i did not fight it....just went to plan b and persevered and relied on my higher power to guide me and i make my turn.....
so i am less afraid of the negativity.....it is there....so i deal by working steps 1, 2, 3 which , with a dash of steps 4, 10, in the mix, I will be OK.....at least OK with me
I hope this post made sense......I am starving to death and i got a organic burgher w/my name on it in the fridge, ready for me to make a nice burgher w/ the lettuce and tomatoe which are beginning to "be critter" food if i don't use them today
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Live and let live and do it with peace and goodwill to all!!!!
Hi, I never read the post that you are talking about but Im really glad you decided to come back. Your posts are usually really optimistic and upbeat and that is needed here. Our posts cant always be perfect or 100% Alanon no matter how hard we try, we can only do our best.x
Hi, I never read the post that you are talking about but Im really glad you decided to come back. Your posts are usually really optimistic and upbeat and that is needed here. Our posts cant always be perfect or 100% Alanon no matter how hard we try, we can only do our best.x
Thanks, el-cee.....yea, its a good thing they stress progress over perfection or i would have been kicked out a long time ago, LOL....i try to look for the solution in my posts, even if i am sputtering away, thinking as i go, i am a solution minded person, thank HP bc i dunno if i wold have made it otherwise.....
and yea, we can "only do our best" so true...and thanks for the nice post HUGS
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My faith in trusting my HP sometimes go's bye bye because I get mad that he is not doing much. I have to continue to think and apply steps 1 thru 3 just to reassure myself to continue the faith and I will be OK. So don't get down because you are not alone in your thinking....I go there too.
When negative feels enter I ask HP to take them away.....yeah sometimes he's a little slow in the response but if I persist he will bring the good vibes back.
One day at a time....and if in a really bad way.....one minute at a time.
(((( hugs )))) you are not alone.
PS: I'm hungry too so off I go to get a bite to eat
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Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
My faith in trusting my HP sometimes go's bye bye because I get mad that he is not doing much. I have to continue to think and apply steps 1 thru 3 just to reassure myself to continue the faith and I will be OK. So don't get down because you are not alone in your thinking....I go there too.
When negative feels enter I ask HP to take them away.....yeah sometimes he's a little slow in the response but if I persist he will bring the good vibes back.
One day at a time....and if in a really bad way.....one minute at a time.
(((( hugs )))) you are not alone.
PS: I'm hungry too so off I go to get a bite to eat
omg..((((Cathy)))) I told my co-recovery mate this very same thing...that my trust goes "bye bye" and I told her yea, I will falter, but will just MAKE me work the steps 1,2,3 to force me to "chill" and ride it out and yea, HP can be "slow' on my time table, but sometimes maybe HP has to work out some stuff i don't know of.....oh yea, i am aware, that this is absolutely a ODAT thing and sometimes a OHAT or even a OMAT affair.......she told me no worries...persistent prayer adn surrender keeps the negative forces at bay................sure hope so........when it comes to relationship w/any HP, I am a NEWBEEEEE
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Honey, we're all newbies when it comes to a relationship with our HP. About the time I think I know all there is to know about my HP, I get surprised and I've been aware of a Power much greater than I and the humans in my life since I was about 3 years old.
Honey, we're all newbies when it comes to a relationship with our HP. About the time I think I know all there is to know about my HP, I get surprised and I've been aware of a Power much greater than I and the humans in my life since I was about 3 years old.
(((G))) WOW...I appreciate this honesty....I don't feel so alone now in my feeling like a newbie......I guess when I pray tonight, I will ask HP to help me not think I "know it all" re: my HP...to help me stay open to HP's teachings and guidance and love.......i so appreciate you saying this......i told my recovery mate, that not IF i falter but WHEN i falter, I pray it is short lived and i come out better when I have learned my lesson......
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