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I read the two post below me and I was also reading some of the responses. I have been working my program for a little over a year and I can say yes I'm much much better but like something Jerry F said. Quote: I remember thinking "Free at last, Free at last...thank God I'm free at last".
You know I'm not there....will I ever get a point in my life that I can say I'm free....free at last.
I got myself a little down today thinking about my son and it hurts inside. Yeah I will get over it and be OK but from time to time I have this hurt I can't shake.
I haven't heard a peep from him and that's good because it's the same old thing starting again and I will not let myself get involved. It would only destroy anything I have done for me so far. I can only move forward to strive for FREE AT LAST I want it so bad I cry about it.
OH well....One day at a time I will get out tomorrow so I don't sit and stew in my pity party, hurt, sorrow....whatever the H I'm doing
Take care everyone and have a good weekend.
-- Edited by Cathyinaz on Friday 1st of November 2013 06:41:55 PM
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
I hear you, Cathy. No word from my son either and I'm doing better not being caught up in the crazy. It does just get you back to square one. In this case, ignorance is bliss.
You are getting stronger... I can see that from your posts. I am still hoping and praying for a good outcome.
Cathy...allow yourself the grace and mercy to grow without being perfect...we never have been and never will be. The very very best we can be is ourselves with our best tool belt on. You are not alone...you have a Higher Power (love the quote) and a whole crowd of family standing with you. You will reach "free at last" because it is one of the consequences of the program we work. ((((hugs))))
You don't get a prince from kissing a frog...you get slimy lips, smelly breath and maybe a wart or two.
I'm sorry that you've had a 'down' day - it happens to all of us from time to time I think. I'm sending you ((((hugs)))) and best wishes for a better day today - hopefully free of Jerry's warty frogs!
I can't believe you've only been working the programme for just over a year - you are one of my guiding lights on these pages and I am so very grateful to you for that.
I'm not a mother of teenagers or adults yet, but my heart goes out too you very much as a mother.
A mothers love is the most intense feeling in the world, I've learned that.....but we need to stay healthy for us and them no matter what they do.
My son has a lot of the same headstrong self-anaware, not to mention overly caring personality as his AH dad's even at 8........as to why I still can find love for my ex, though I will never ever ever again let myself cave in just because I need my health for the little ones........we Love the person, not the disease. Love also starts from within us, I think.
One day at a time, the healthier, and more peaceful you are is what matters right now. Prayers*
