Hi everyone

Thursday went good without fear.  I picked up my son and we went to the place where he would stay.  He like it and signed up to live there.  It's close to the rehab where he still can go back to for meetings, counseling and support he needs.  If that happens only God knows.  This place is a transitional apartment complex but not what I would consider sober living.  Rent is very cheap and it is for recovery addicts. He has two months free rent so that gives him to January to find employment.   My son is very grateful and said it many times during the day. 

Next we went to Superior Court to file his paperwork to have his record expunged.  Should know down the road if this will happen. He prays it does.

Next we got some lunch and then to my place to get his clothes and computer.  I loaned him some of my camping equipment, blow up mattress, camping pots and dishes.  I also loaned him a lamp for light.  He was so grateful to have this stuff so he wouldn't be sleeping on the floor or eating out of cans.

We talked quite a bit and he told me some stuff I never would have thought he would remember when he was 14.  He was so mad at his father and I during the divorce because we, his parents, made him choose who he would live with.  When he chose his father...afterwards he was so worried about what I felt he has kept it inside and it was killing him.  Me, I was OK with it but he thought I would never forgive him.   What he told me.....he wished he would have just flipped us both off and said F you both for making him choose.  But at that age you don't do those things.....that's what he wishes he did now.  We talked about it and talked about many other things and we worked though a lot of it.  He needs to talk to his father too.  Oh...I asked him point blank....son did you manipulate me?  He said....hell yea I did.  You were a push over.  This might be a small thing but I was grateful he was very honest with what he told me about it.  Also during the day there wasn't one thing he said that I would have doubted. He was very honest and didn't hesitate to tell me like it was.  His cheating and stealing he wanted to talk about...I just listened.  All I could say was wow. 

Well to move on...my son had a smile on his face and nothing Thursday made him upset. His attitude has changed quite a bit. Couldn't go an hour without him being grateful for something.  How his life is going to be better and the only thing he thinks about now is his sobriety and getting employment to make a living for himself. 

The rehab counselors and staff were all there when we left.  They couldn't stress it enough for my son to come back often and speak at AA meetings, coming every Sunday to the alumni meetings and call anytime if he needs help. They told him not to isolate anymore because that is one of his big triggers. 

Now I'm home and feel at peace no matter what happens.  I pray he will continue his recovery...but yes I can only pray about it.  I will continue my program, stay on my side of the street, love him and support his recovery.

Have a great weekend and pray for your continued recovery...take care of yourself because that's what gives us peace and serenity. 

Let go Let God....