The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Today is a good day but I seem to want to go into the past too much. Not working the one day at a time slogan very well. I have a lot of old emails I sent to my parents before they died. Until today, I didn't know how to sort them. I am just trying to make some sense out of life. These days my mom is not the only one on my mind. My dad worked on a naval base for many years. He retired early because of the base closure. Anyhow, come to find out that many men who worked on that base died of cancer-related issues. I am not the only one who went through this. My dad said that he was exposed to a lot of radiation. I guess that gradually ended his life. It makes me sad to mention this but I felt like that finally made sense to me. It doesn't matter today to me what really happened that my dad died. I guess he had to go. He wanted to stop treatments & he got what he wanted.
So, today I am a little sad. But, the rest of the day I plan to be a blessing to someone or an ear to listen. I will do anything I can to make my inner circle a little bit tighter. I value that part of my life more than most things, except my relationship w/ my Higher Power. Thanks to HIM I am still sane & able to be there for other people. Before when I was sick, I couldn't be there for anyone even myself.
Hoot, your an inspiraton to me. I love that even though you are sad you can still hope to be a blessing to someone else. Well you have succeeded because you are a blessing to me. Thank you.x
