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I'm back to work and I DON"T want to be here. After 5 days off and I want to retire...hehe I wish!
I cleaned my house, did some yard work, started to put up my new lighting outside, went gambling, had my toes and nails done, went shopping and was lazy. Was able to spend some quality time with my grandkitty so she can get used to her new home and get used to my 4 beasts. Play time is a priority with them so they are not stocking each other so much and fighting.
Got a email from my son yesterday.....hadn't heard a thing from him but I guess he was true to his word about the place at the ranch. He's there... YEA!!! He asked if I would store his guns because he didn't feel safe with them being at the ranch with so many people around that he really doesn't know yet. Also there is no where to lock them up so under his bed is not the best place. I said OK...bring them by. He said he would when he got the chance and Thank You mom!!
I said nothing more....didn't ask......didn't engage. I have changed so so much from just 6 months ago I'm excited seeing a new me.
I still have so much to learn about me but just to keep my mouth shut and let HP hold my hand is the greatest gift he could have given me. You just can't imagine the peace within when you just don't engage. Any "what ifs".....any worries.....any fear just go's away in very short order when you stay on your side of the street. If might be there but not for very long......Trust me......it works, when you work it and your worth it.
Have a good week all.......and peace within.
(((( hugs ))))
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
Nothing to add except - I'm happy for you, Cathy. Letting go can be such a mess to get to and then we finally can and do, we notice how peaceful our lives can be if we keep doing what we need to do to get what we really want - serenity and a life of our own that contains little to no drama. (((C)))
Good for you Cathy!!! You have come so far in such a short time: you should be very proud of yourself. Isn't it amazing how much you can get done when we are not wallowing in our A's "what if" dramas. One day at a time, as they say. And a pedicure is a close second to the serenity you have found!!!
My recovery just took a turn. My son calls me today and asked if he could stop by at 430 and bring some of the things here. I said OK. He also wanted to see his cat. Now it's 530 and he has not showed up. I tried to call and no answer......I'm so upset and anxiety has set in thinking he's coming drunk and didn't get here at all because he is drunk and maybe an accident or stopped......I just can't deal with this.
I give up....
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Lord, put your arm around my shoulder and your hand over my mouth
Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
