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Coming back and facing me is not w/out its price to pay, but its better in that out
my PTSD comes packaged w/ back spasms and the ibs that triggers off the screwed up nerve impulses to my back muscles.
IBS is cyclical when I am working my program and staying with it, feeling better, more positive, my symptoms are less....even liveable
however coming back I have had to face sme stuff with me...some re: the past....More re: just life NOW
so IBS has been bad....Was up all night practically bloating and into the restroom....Sleep was terrible......I am feeling a bit better, but gonna eat light...fibery stuff....cut back on meats for a bit....eat easier to digest foods, and smaller meals more often to keep my colon from further spasm.....
this sucks....It is hard to not feel anger at the one who harmed me sooo bad My body is paying for what he did along with my mind and emotions.....but I SHALL
RELEASE RELEASE RELEASE ME from the anger/resentment/hate/revenge feelings that I am having a hard time with b/c now I am sick, down with ptsd...may not be able to swim today, its an hour by hour thing......so yea, I just have to KEEP releasing ...Anyone who destroys their own child, in such a wicked way, to me??? death penalty OR at least Life w/out parole.....I got a life sentence b/c of his evil choices
so today??? less on computer.....MORE in meditation, I shall send this negativity BACK to its SOURCE and do it and do it releasing me from it b/c it is NOT MINE.....I will not "house" it anymore....
so, peeps.....I am in "down/resting" time......See ya all when I feel better...
I see this almost as a good sign b/c my feeling so lousey means I am rooting out more decay from this bad tooth called my past....and when you are digging out more decay, you feel like crap.....
see ya all when I feel better.....time for water.....rest.....meditation......easy fibery foods.......give my body a rest period.....nothing hard on it til this IBS calms down..........it has waaay improved since I went organic however I do get my "bad days" I guess........
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I am sorry for the discomfort. Take good care....I need to unplug and go within occasionally to reboot. It is a necessity for my program of good self care; then I eat peanut butter cups. (((hugs)))
Hey Breaking, Paula and Cindy....((((((((HUGS)))))) for the comforting words.
Doing a bit better this evening after a lot of rest.....THEN, this afternoon, late, I went swimming and was still exhausted from my rough night, but I just had to "move" and it was blazing hot so I swam....didn't push it....
I ate brown rice and some pinto beans to give my whole system some rest.....later, I will make a smoothie of banana, vanilla soy meal, and soy milk.......
I am just gonna ease up on me and not push things.....early to bed tonight, I came on to answer a couple of posts, I'm a bit better but still not so great
Daughter #2 called me......Her computer is crashed and she doesn't' want anyone touching it but me...I told her I was having trouble with my ptsd and would come over when I felt like it......Pool closes on the 11th and I want to get in all the swim time I can b/c it helps my back ....I said that I needed to take care of and nurture me and she could either wait for me to feel better , also I do have to work, or call a friend of husband's and let them fix...I didn't say it mean...Just real calm but firm.....Neshema is gonna take care of Neshema.....
Thanks , ladies, for your well wishes....
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I'm happy your a little better. I had a bout with IBS once about 10 years ago. Every test done under the sun and in the end....take some pills, eat right and don't upset yourself. After about 7 months it just went away. Hope it never comes back.
Take care Neshema and get a good nights rest.
((( hugs )))
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Hi, Neshema: Sorry, you're having trouble with that yucky, miserable stuff. I hope you do get rest tonight that is free of pain. Lots of care being sent to you in that big hot place called Texas. Glad you're swimming. I know you love it.
I'm happy your a little better. I had a bout with IBS once about 10 years ago. Every test done under the sun and in the end....take some pills, eat right and don't upset yourself. After about 7 months it just went away. Hope it never comes back.
Take care Neshema and get a good nights rest.
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You are lucky that yours went away....I have battled this on and off since I was 17....too much stress
It comes and goes...I can feel totally "normal" for a while then BOOM, it hits me with BOTH kinds...just depends.....when it hits, I swear off meats and fats and eat easy stuff to digest and take it easy on me...had my colon checked and it was a "beauty" according to the docs....IBS is just nerves and spasms I think....
the name is a "catch all" phrase meaning the docs dont' know anything about it....a "syndrome" is a high tech way of saying "we dont' know JACK about your problem" nothing has helped me but cutting back on size of meals and eating more often...i.e., no 3 big meals but 4 smaller ones...lots of water....exercise....relaxing techniques....lots of fiber to keep me from spasming...and thats about it.....thanks for stopping by, (((Cathy))) Glad the kitties are safe and sound w/you and no worries, they usually work stuff out if ya dont' obsess and get nervous about it...animals sense when they are creating stress and it stresses them.......my kittie hated the pittie when I first brought her home...pittie was waaay too nosy about her.....so the crate....kitty had her "space" pittie could only look through the front gate at her.....after a while, they both seemed to calm down, now they are the best of friends......
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