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I feel like this week has been a turning point for me. Maybe I am really learning how to "let go and let God". I feel like I have some clarity about my role in this dysfunctional marriage, and I can see how much my actions and reactions have served to perpetuate this d**m merry go round of the disease. This week I worked very hard just keeping the focus on me, and maybe my brain is now learning a new way to function. It has been nearly 9 months since I walked through the doors of an al-anon meeting and got that first hug. 9 months, lol, maybe it is something like having a baby, this learning how to detach. I'm certainly not perfect at it, and I know I never will be, but this week has been a good one, I've done a good job of keeping my mouth shut, and letting AH figure out his own stuff. It really is miraculous, if I just butt out, he has to do some hard work on his own, and OWN it. Feels good to only be in control of myself for a change. No idea what tomorrow will bring, but I'm feeling very good about today.
paris, thanks for this- I needed to see that good weeks are possible.
I have gotten the silent treatment for a week after a threat of divorce-and trying to have a good week now, seems beyond me!
Me n AH(decades in AA recovery) had been separated and trying to reconcile for the past 3 months. It seemed great until father's day. Big argument. I saw it happening and even saw my part in it- So Why didn't just shut my mouth and let it Be?
AH says a lot of stuff he recants later-and I know he loves me. I made an immediate amends and have tried to reconnect, but he's not having it. I am scared and sad.(and mad at myself for being so stubborn)
I need to remember that good weeks follow the bad-and I need to wait for the workings of my HP thanks for the reminder, little T
What a wonderful share. Sounds like you are learning new tools in handling life in a much more positive manner. I'm so glad to hear from you today. Glad you posted.
That is working it Paris. It is like being a parent, when you go too far with the rescuing then they believe they need it but when you let them figure it out then they do.x
Your share reminds me of the saying "When the student is ready the teacher arrives" Mahalo Paris from leading this lesson on how it's done which also brought Little T's share into view. ((((hugs))))
Thanks for sharing your progress. It's nice that you see it and are taking credit for the recovery work you've done. just think of all the fun things you're freed up to do for yourself now that you're leaving him to his hp. Glad it's been a good week for you. Keep coming back. TT
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