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The peace is in Us. Love that reminder. I still struggle with the idea of how he can behavior one way toward me where I definitely Feel the Humiliation (form of abuse) and then I am supposed to be the available one. I get angry and want to be not nice too. I have, however, come a ways in setting boundaries for me. I know I will be eventually most likely be going through the same, but for the moment (and this is one time I Want to Stay in the moment, interestingly enough because I don't want to see the future Yet) I too am grateful !! much serenity to you !!
-- Edited by MeTwo2 on Sunday 16th of June 2013 01:54:35 PM
It has been a peaceful day today the first one since last Friday evening and I am VERY grateful at this point. It's pretty sad when I realized that OMGosh .. today is the first day I haven't seen a deputy, been to the court house, gotten any texts OR had to deal with my atty. That's pretty huge. Instead of drama, my daughter and I spent the time working on the house, she's playing video games and tonight is movie night at Grandma's house. My son has been with his Grandma today (s/mom) and just had a good time in general helping her. I'm going to see if she'll take my daughter tonight so my son and I can spend time together tomorrow.
I completely forgot that this weekend is Father's Day and I feel bad about it. I do because he's their dad and the kids deserve to see their dad on Father's Day. So my daughter and I went shopping for a little gift and card .. when they do see him it may be late .. at least they will have something to give to him.
LOL .. on Mother's Day I received an angry text about the fact the kids are coming home with a gift and a card for Mother's Day .. yes, he was less than thrilled and I laughed about it. I was glad he did take them even though he was angry about it at least he did it. LOL .. I thought for a moment to have E text him however I thought no that's me just being not nice. She can text him when she wants to about it. He's under the impression and that's not my fault the deputy on duty did that one .. the order extends to the kids as well. I'm sure he hasn't spoken to his atty so I'm letting it ride at this point. It's not my fault that
Of course I love the guidance I've gotten from my atty about this situation .. I feel like instead of opening up the can of worms further I'm just letting it all go for the moment. It is what it is at this point and I think HP just needs time to sort it all out. I have to start planning for court. There is a huge possibility that he won't show OR that his atty will show instead .. we'll see.
Anyway, I am grateful for the quiet and I am going to revel in the fact there is no drama going on .. no fast and furious texts and I have some peace to do a few things for myself and the kids this weekend.
Hugs P :)
PS - He phoned my daughter yesterday, and I was able to make arrangements at his s/mom's so he will see the kids. Still it has been VERY peaceful and I am grateful for the break.
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Oh yes!! the land of serenity really does exist and I can be there and have it just as the elders of the program suggested and told me I could. I'm grateful for their patience as I got thru the disbelief that peace of mind and serenity could be had as promised. I was wrong and glad I was wrong and stayed with the oldtimers and sponsorship. I'm free now!! Free from my part of being the victim and the old false rules that said I had to be a victim. NOT!! Free at last...Free at last...Thank GOD!! I'm free at last. Imagine..Sunday morning meeting no farther than 20 feet from the quiet, calm, clear, gentle and peaceful Pacific Ocean. We were all at peace...inside and out. Can't you just hear the hummmm of it. Hope you all get to experience it. A hui ho (((((hugs))))
OK, I'm totally jealous of Jerry's meeting by the ocean this AM, LOL! Thank you all for the reminder to find peace and calm no matter where you are. I am trying to just stay cool in the 108 degrees today!
Jerry F thank you for painting such a lovely picture of the view from your meeting room a tiny bit of the peace of it has made its way round the world to me
