The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am noticing today that I am doing a good job using my alanon tools at home with my H. That is the good news. Peaceful night at home, staying focused on me, not being mean, all good.
Now for the bad news. reflecting on my work day, i see that I was Miss Negativity in the office today. Finding the negative in every request, getting caught up in the office gossip.and drama. And yes, doing my part to feed the drama. Nothing too destructive, but still, why do I act this way? I truly want serenity, but somedays I think the little demon inside me just can't wait to stir things up.
Is this a sign that it is time for step 4?
Well, tomorrow is a new day. I can try again.
Paris that was the kind of share I grew up with in Al-Anon and of course yes again it comes from a woman...Mahalo Akua `o ke wahine...thank you God for the woman... There were not alot of men in program when and where I got in and so I listened to and watched the woman and was always impressed with the insitefulness, honesty and courage. They had no one they needed to impress except themselves as they arrived closer and closer to peace of mind and serenity which is what I wanted and needed so much myself.
I learn by listening with my eyes. I learn by seeing and getting the "pictures" which people asked me if they had to draw so that I "get it" whatever the subject was. I get the picture as you put it in print here...I get it!! I couldn't miss the post because of the title. "...working it everywhere at all times because it works for me and the fellowship". I don't always get it done best and mostly I do get it done better and then there is the next time the next opportunity to work it. I did today at work what you have mentioned you want to do...grow, and I don't know how HP felt about it...I didn't hear the feedback...or did I miss it because I wasn't listening so openly with my eyes? I know how I felt about it...serene with my spirit at peace and my emotions in sync. Working it everywhere...that is how I've been and am still being taught. I'm staying in school and doing my homework cause the program does work when...and where...you work it. Thanks so much for your share. Keep coming back (((((hugs)))))
