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With Mothers Day fast approaching i am full of so many feelings. My mother became an addict during my adult life. Our relationship has been strained, to say the least, since that time. I try to detachwith love but she does not allow that to happen. She wants to start fights, pretend she is not using and try to tell me she never has. I recently spilt from my partner and i was very close with her parents so losing them to the break up has tore my heart in half. I still sent my mother a card for mothers day, something very simple, but i envied the cards that said things like "you are always there for me" " you have helped me so much" etc. I lost my mother to a disease and i cannot do anything to get her back. When she is active she is lawless, and nasty to everyone around her. I have decided not to allow that in my life espiecially in my recovery. It breaks my heart to kow that i cannot fix her and make her better
(((Hugs))) to you, Ladybug. Mother's Day is problematic for a lot of people, and kind of impossible to get away from. Having to look for cards is also very difficult. It sounds like you are making great progress by saying you cannot fix her and make her better.
I won't be hearing from my son...I haven't for a long time. Mothers Day is just another day for me.
I feel for you on the other side also....I didn't have a mother...she died when I was 8 year old. I did have a step mother but I wasn't close to her at all.
Take care Miss LadyBug, I pray you find some peace
((( hugs )))
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