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So, maybe I shouldn't be so excited or maybe I should? My sister is here & I am so happy! She is so laid back & so not CA! I am so glad that I can see how easy it is to talk to her & that I shouldn't be worried about what I say or think. She "is" my sister after all! What am I worried about; well...I was a little because we are face-to-face w/ the loss of our father. It was so moving to see her at the airport because I started to cry. I am in need of family really letting me know the truth however painful! I am just grateful that I can stilll communicate w/ anyone in my family. I am not going to ruin any time we have together this week. Time is of essence because I really don't plan on going down there again. And, also, the last time I was down there, I almost screwed up everything! My sister was so hurt. I guess I am & will always be a handful when I am not well. For those of you who don't know me, I have BP: I am doing well now but there have been times when I have shamed my family. I am fortunate to be able to have any relationship at all w/ my immeditate family; every since my dad & step-mom died, I have felt alone & scared that when I die, there will be no one up here who will be there when I go. Me, I am crazy to think this way or so "I" think, because I am only 46 years old. I am such a projecter & have problems w/ my mortality. So, I got on a tangent again.
By the way, my AH & I are doing well--we really are communicating better but I am still hiding things from him.
I am still excited as I am fininshing this post. More to come--hopefully positive!
I'm so happy for you that you are spending time with your sister. I don't see my sister much but I think I will start seeing her more. You just enjoy yourself and don't worry about a thing and all will go well I'm sure,
Have a great week!!! (( Hugs )))
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Speak only when you feel that your words are better than your silence.
That's great news Kathleen... I think tears are a great sign of healing... and having a familiar shoulder to cry on even more so!
I am completely at odds with my sister- a massive bust-up created by our AF who is long gone. I have indirect facebook contact with her through a cousin- [aren't cousins so much more neutral?]. So there are baby steps there, in the shadows.
((((SafeHug)))) Glad you are finding your way Hoot Nanny! Just when we sometimes wonder what, why, when... the Miracle starts to unfold in front of us... sounds like yours is blooming beautifully.
John
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" And what did we gain? A new life, with purpose, meaning and constant progress, and all the contentment and fulfillment that comes from such growth."
