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I have been such a bad member lately. But, I am back. I have had so many positive things happen in the last 10 months since my AF left! It really is almosst creepy. I came into a bit of money and was able to buy a condo. I quit my job, started another, and then came across an amazing perfect job that I LOVE! Things have gone in such a positive direction after our break up, it was like it was meant to be. Although, I am very lonely, but OK. I spoke with my ex-af via email while I was packing the house. I needed his address to send him some of the things he left He started emailing all of the time, my bad...but, havent heard from him in a month. This is his drinking season, so I wouldnt be surprised. His birthday is April 28th, and every relapse he had while we were together started a few weeks before his birthday.....so that is about the right time. Not sure why I wonder or care? Hence, the reason I remembered I needed Al anon! I could see myself messing up the good in my life running to his resuce! I dont want to do that, and figured getting back here is the answer!xo
So glad to hear an update and to hear things have been getting better for you! Sounds like you are having a relapse of your own and I am so glad to hear you remembered where to come when this happens. Keep up the great work! Sending you love and support!
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Sending you love and support on your journey always! BreakingFree
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" Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."
"Serenity is when your body and mind are in the same place."
LOL .. welcome back and our mystery board kind of pops up from time to time for an unknown grimlin reason you must have gotten caught like a few of us have :)
Loved your update so glad things are going well!!!
Hugs P :)
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Stepping onto a brand-new path is difficult, but not more difficult than remaining in a situation, which is not nurturing to the whole woman.- Maya Angelo
Things are well. But, I think I am messing up what is going well in my life. I don't even know if I should talk about it? I made a ***not that great relationship*** choice recently, and I know what to do, but can't do it. I have to think about even talking about it here. Although, I need to talk about it somewhere, and I know it is from my disease when I make poor choices. I make pretty bad choices when I am lonely and love the immediate great feelings, but what follows turns out to be a mess. I better think about it some more and decide if Alanon is a place that I can go to get my head straight with this one.
xo
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Katfshh
~The most beautiful sunsets are made by cloudy skies~
Hear me, my chiefs. I am tired; my heart is sick and sad. From where the sun now stands I will fight no more forever.
Hello Katfshh, your post made me think of the Indian Chief (Joseph of the Nez Perce) who spoke those words - they could be my words because "I" am tired and my heart is sick and sad (and healing); I will do everything I can to never fight again - forever. The heart-wrenching battles with my ex-ah tore me so apart that I vow never to go back - hence I hang back to watch every new man that enters my space, even if they aren't looking at me, to gauge whether some day there might be battling, keeping a safe distance because I don't think I can survive another bout. If you know what to do but don't do it then you have only yourself to blame, right? That sounds cold and I'm not usually cold, but I've got a cold, so maybe I'm off-kilter this morning because I'm tired of coughing up my lungs! Loneliness driven relationships don't work out well for me, when I feel the twinge of lonely trying to sneak into my life, I play back recordings of him ranting and I read from the "Best of Insanity emails - top hits for dealing with the denial of loneliness".
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I am strong in the broken places. ~ Unknown
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another! ~ Anatole France
Hear me, my chiefs. I am tired; my heart is sick and sad. From where the sun now stands I will fight no more forever.
Hello Katfshh, your post made me think of the Indian Chief (Joseph of the Nez Perce) who spoke those words - they could be my words because "I" am tired and my heart is sick and sad (and healing); I will do everything I can to never fight again - forever.
I love this...I should write this down. It is so true. And lonliness is both a blessing and a curse in my life. I look around when I am lonely and only see happy people that are devoted and loving to each other and I wonder why I cannot ever find that for the long term. I need to move cautiously... Thank you.
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Katfshh
~The most beautiful sunsets are made by cloudy skies~
