This last week I have had moments of fleeting serinity.  lol I am doing good maintaining and something sets me off and I want to be mean and say mean things and pick a fight. I am just so angry.  I am not like that at all usually. 

So I have been stopping to pray, I take break and pray for help in seeing a differnt perspective and wow has it been helping.It is bringing me so much more deep peace about a few resentments.  Not the bottle it up and call it peace I usually get.  LOL

I was so mad about something yesterday and worked up, I picked a fight and said things that were hurtful.  I stopped ut some firewood prayed and whent back to the discussion and had a good talk that felt like it got somewhere. 

I hated one of his friends with an over the top all out hate. I blamed a lot of my husbands problems on him.  My husband on the other hand has a lot of similarities with this friend and feels close to him.  So when I felt so much toward him (slime on the bottom of my shoe type feelings) my husband felt like he was the same and so he kept trying to convince me how great he was. Inviting him over, having him around, walking all over my boundries.  I was like a bright red flag in front of a bull.  But after I prayed for a new perspective and to have clarity to unerstand the big picture, we came back to it.  I understand my hubbys feelings he understands mine and now he won't push the boundery. I talked about my resentments toward my husbands addition and refocused them a little better and let a lot go that was holding me down.