Hello All, next chapter of my saga....my ex AB has sent me a few texts trying to stab at I me, I respond with messages of my positive recovery and courage to change my situation. That shuts him up for a day or so, but I finally blocked him from contacting me...again. My last "I love you" but this is not for me speech. He is too negative and certainly not supportive of what i want to accomplish in recovery. I know he would like to swear and name call at me but that restraining order saved me there. Thank goodness cuz that would have been ugly. I have not been as emotional these past days either, that's a good thing, it helps me to stay strong and away from him. As I work my first step with my sponsor he is in my thoughts but in a way that helps me put what was in perspective, a reality check. I have heard so many times it is not him its the disease, I get that it was not a competition even thought I felt that way. My self esteem is building and the hopelessness is lessening everyday. I'm loving my meetings and the support is a miracle!!

Take care all...Heather